When Life Hands You Lemons...

Random Thoughts

2012-01-29T14:24:00.000-08:00

I've decided to write a post about random things that have been going through my mind recently...

--New favorite TV shows: Criminal Minds and Alcatraz. I really want to visit Alcatraz in San Fran now.

--Bacon. NOT a huge fan of it. Why are people putting it on cupcakes and other things that shouldn't have bacon on it?? All I have to say is disgusting.

--Shutterfly. This website is amazing. You can put together a photo album, calendar, card, etc. with your own photos. It's not too pricey and it makes for a great, personalized gift :)

--My Future. It belongs to me and those whom I choose to have in it. I have my own ambitions and will do what I need to do to reach those. I am my own boss, and will do my own thing. I'm very curious, but exuberant to see what my future brings. All I know is that I see Christian in it and a family :)

--Ogden, Utah. This has been my home for some time now, and I'm starting to feel it's no longer a home to me. I cannot wait to move back to California. I'm ready to move on with my life and be closer to Christian and my family & friends.

--Taxes. I STILL have yet to get my W2 form in the mail. It's really starting to piss me off, because I need to get my taxes filed. Hopefully I'll get it before the deadline, Feb. 1st.

Year In Review

2012-01-02T19:37:00.000-08:00

Year In Review: 2011

Wow! I can't believe it's already 2012! Craziness! Anyways, here's my year in review evaluation for 2011 :)

A First For Me: Having a personal trainer & Going on a cruise

Goals/Resolutions I Achieved: Eating healthier, working out more, making new friends and being more outgoing.

Major Life Changes: I reconnected with Christian, and now we're in a relationship :)

New Friends: Brianna Sexton and Andrea Ettinghausen

New Additions: No new additions to the family this year. But Keri is expecting baby #2 this year!!

Best Vacation: The cruise and Disneyland trip with my love!

Best Movie(s): Water For Elephants & Bridesmaids

Best Photo(s):

Marissa, Bri & I...June 2011

Shelby, Monica, Eliana, Keri, Jacob, Ezra, me and Brian...My Family!! Thanksgiving 2011

Christian and I on the cruise!!

Best Love Song(s): Always & Forever by Heatwave and One And Only by Adele

Best Guilty Pleasure Song: Pass Out by Tinie Tempah...I love the beat of it

Best Music Video(s):

(Pretty much LOVE Beyonce!!)

Best New TV Show(s): American Horror Story & Once Upon A Time

Best New Artist(s): Sia & Dia Frampton

Best New Website: Pinterest

2012 New Year's Resolutions: I will work on becoming a better person. Meaning, no more complaining, doing the best I can and educating myself further. I will get back to school and start my degree in Interior Design. I will focus on myself and becoming healthier and losing more weight. Not only losing more weight, but eating healthier so I can live a longer and healthier life. I will focus on today and the future. I will make more friends and be even more outgoing. I will work hard for what I have, and not take a thing for granted. I will love 100% and have no regrets. I won't worry so much about what others think of me; I am my own person and want to achieve the things I need to, in order to be where I want to be, and where I see myself.

Christmas 2011 & Vegas Trip!!!

2012-01-02T16:20:00.000-08:00

Christmas 2011!!!

I was fortunate enough to go home to Bakersfield for Christmas this year and spend it with all the people I love...well there were a few who couldn't make it...but I was able to spend it with my family and my love. Unfortunately, I forgot to take pictures on Christmas day :( On Christmas Eve, we did our little family tradition of a Christmas program focusing on Christ's birth with wonderful and uplifting Christmas hymns. It was really nice, and I'm so lucky for the family I have. I'm actually very grateful for ALL the people in my life. Even co-workers and acquaintances :) I got some very nice and thoughtful gifts. The two gifts I loved the most was a kindle fire that Christian and his parents got for me...and the other was a book that Monica made online, full of great photos of our family (that Christian took over Thanksgiving vacation)! Here's a photo of the awesome gifts I got:

Christian got me: a cute purple stocking filled with candy, new skull candy headphones!, a candle, lots of lip smackers :), nail polish, gift cards, a cloth for the kindle's screen...a kindle fire, the last 3 books in the Harry Potter series!, and a cute frame with a photo of us on our first date :)

Monica & Shelby got me: a super cute gray sweater, a photo book of family photos :), the 2nd book in the Hunger Games series!, and adorable earrings!

Georgina (Monica's mom) got me: slippers, a bath set, a cute watch bracelet, and lotion :)

Diana (a good friend from work) got me: a digital photo frame key chain! and candy :)

Christian's brother, Javier, got me: a book on saving money... :)

Nancy got me: an adorable ruffled purple scarf and a cute photo album!

Vegas Trip!!!

The day after Christmas, Christian and I drove to Vegas. I had a really fun time there! All we really did was walk around EVERYWHERE, take photos and eat out at fabulous restaurants. We even gambled a few times...don't worry, all I gambled was $1.00! At one point I had made over $4.00, but I continued to gamble that. Needless to say, gambling isn't for me. The reason for this is because I would probably become addicted to it :( But all in all, Vegas was fun and adventurous (I've only been there twice now lol). There are photos posted below! I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas with your family and loved ones.

Christian and I at the Hard Rock Cafe :)
In the Cosmopolitan casino...it was super fancy in there!
Some huge heel in the Cosmopolitan casino/mall
The view of New York New York from the Strip
Christian and I enjoying the awesome weather :)
The small bag of M&M's I got at the M&M Store!
The canal in the Venetian! This is where we ate at Wolfgang Puck's restaurant...it was amazing food, but too expensive! Lol

Holly Jolly Christmas

2011-12-11T19:09:00.000-08:00

Wow, I can't believe Christmas is only in 2 weeks! I'll be flying home to spend it with my family and Christian :) I also got to go home for Thanksgiving (first time since 2006!). I got to see my cute little niece, Eliana, for the first time and she's a cutie. Christian took family photos for us. He is really very talented at photography :) I've got all my Christmas shopping done, well I have two more gifts to get, but I'm thinking I'll just get those when I go home to Bakersfield for Christmas. Below are a few photos from the last little bit. I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season and not stressing themselves out too badly.

Munn Family Thanksgiving Photo Shoot: (These are my most favorite!)

My little Christmas tree in my apartment :)

We're doing the Twelve (Business) Days of Christmas at work...Day 1 was create ornaments out of construction paper for the customer service tree...these are the ornaments I made. I won The Most Festive award :)

You Get Me...

2011-11-05T19:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry that it's been a while since I've posted something on here. I have quite a bit to update you all on though! Back in August, I started talking to a really great guy who I've actually known since Jr. High and High School. His name is Christian Parra, but he goes by Chris :) We'd talked previously before, but just as friends on FB and whatnot. He took the time to really get to know me and we found that we had quite a lot in common. So we continued talking and getting to know each other, and he drove all the way up here from Bakersfield in October to see me (we hadn't seen each other since high school). The whole weekend he was up here went so great! We hit it off and decided we wanted to make things official, we could feel that we had a really strong connection even more so in person. So a week after that, we went on a cruise with his family. I had gotten my passport (which is a whole other story lol), and I had gotten the time off of work. I hadn't been on a REAL relaxing vacation in years! The weekend I flew back home, he met my family and I met his. Monica and Ezra met him the first night I was back, and as soon as he left, Monica told me she approved! It seems that Shelby took a liking to him too! I met his family Sunday and he told me they really liked me, even though it was kind of hard to talk to them (they speak mostly Spanish--but it's a good thing, so I can practice more). He also met my grandma Pat that Sunday and she seemed to take a liking to him! The cruise was so much fun! There was so much food, and lots of entertainment...even in just watching others dance around haha. We talked a lot on the cruise and told each other how we feel and that we see a future together. We have the same goals, have a really strong connection, love each other and want the same things! He even wants to get married in the temple with me :) Long story short, I'm moving back to Bakersfield this Spring and I'll more than likely live with my family until we plan to get married. I'd move sooner, except for my one-year lease for my apartment isn't up until March. I'm a little nervous to move back, because I've lived on my own for so long and I'm afraid it'll be hard for me to find another great job, like the one I've had here for the last 5+ years. I've prayed about everything, and I know that's what I'm supposed to do right now. Plus, my family's there along with Chris and some great friends from high school. We don't plan on living there forever, just temporarily. We'd like to move to the coast or to Texas, for his career, at a later date. I've already told my family and most of my friends our plans and they seem really happy for me! I couldn't ask for a better guy. He really makes me happy, wants the best for me, brings out the best in me, understands me, loves me for who I am, and he's just an all-around great guy! He's caring, loving, smart, he can make me laugh, and is very patient with me. I think the fact that he wanted to get to really know me, took the time, and really understands me is the reason I fell in love with him. I understand him too, we think similarly :) It's so crazy to think that just 4 months ago I'd given up on ever finding anyone and didn't care about dating anymore...it's like they say, "It happens when you least expect it." and "When you know, you just know." It's kind of mind-boggling to me, because it happened so fast and I've known him since we were both 12! It's a long-distance relationship for the next 5-6 months, but I know we're both strong and it'll just strengthen our relationship even more!

A Few Random Thoughts:

--The title of this blog is a song by Michelle Branch that reminds me of Chris :)

--Today was the first snow fall of the winter, and it's freezing outside!

--I wanna go on another cruise!

--I really miss Chris, as I'm posting this blog :(

--I am SO grateful for Skype so I can chat with him!

--I'm grateful for my family and for everything they do for me!

--I miss my brother and sister too. But I get to see them this month for Thanksgiving :)

--I also get to see my niece, Ellie!

--New Favorite TV show: Once Upon A Time

--I just bought Kelly Clarkson's newest CD and it's really good...but why are most of her songs sad and depressing?? :(

--Breaking Dawn Part 1 comes out this month! Chris says he'll take me to see it when I'm in town, woot! Can't wait! The fourth book is my favorite :)

Photos:

The weekend he came up, we all went to a Haunted Circus in Draper...it was lots of fun! (From left to right: Steve, Andrea, Marissa, Seth, me, Chris, Bri and Chris)

That weekend we spent a lot of time out and about...we went to Ikea and the Gateway in SLC. As we were passing the Build-A-Bear there and I told him I'd never been inside the store or gotten one. He said we should go look around and then he told me to pick one out, so I picked out this super soft bunny :) Since there's a birth certificate for the bunny, we named her Skie (Sky)! He's such a sweet guy! :)

On a boat that took us to Catalina Island...on the cruise :) Me and Chris!

The huge ship we were on...Paradise Carnival ship :)

Again, on Catalina Island :) Me and Chris!

On the cruise. This was Tuesday night, before we went to dinner at the fancy Elation restaurant. We had to dress up--it was mandatory!

On Wednesday night goofing around and taking pictures on top of the ship :)

In line for the Star Wars 3D ride, at Disneyland :) Yes, we went to Disneyland RIGHT after the cruise!

Chris and I at Disneyland! Don't ya love my Minnie Mouse ears?? :)

There's No Place Like Home

2011-08-28T13:34:00.000-07:00

So, I got to go home last weekend to visit my family. It was a nice visit, even though it was super short. I got hang out with my family and visit my Grandma Pat. It was good to visit and see how everyone is doing. Here's what my weekend was like...

Friday: Made move to new building at work, worked ALL day. Brian came up to Ogden, and we celebrated his bday. I made him a cake, took him out to Chili's for dinner and we saw the new Glee 3D movie.

Saturday: Brian and I drove ALL day to Bakersfield. It was a nice drive though.

Sunday: Went to church at the Monica Ward with Jacob. Drove around Bakersfield and took photos. Hung out with Shelby and the boys.

Monday: Went to lunch and Dewar's with Brian, picked up Jacob from school, visited with our old Principal, Mrs. Clevenger at Edison Middle School. Grandma Pat took us out to dinner at Sizzler.

Tuesday: Ran errands with Monica and Shelby, went out to lunch. Went to Grandma Pat's house to say goodbye, since I was leaving that night. Picked up boys from school. Drove to Long Beach. Flight was delayed, saw my high school friend, Ilia. Flew home to SLC, and Bri picked me up. Got home at 1 AM.

More in depth:

Brian came up to Ogden Friday evening, and I took him out to Chili's and the Glee 3D movie for his birthday. Saturday, Brian and I drove home. It was such a nice drive, and it went by pretty quickly, seeing as it was a 12 hour drive. Sunday, we visited the Monica Ward and after church we went on a nice drive around town and I took some photos (I'll share them on here). Shelby made steak, potatoes and zucchini bread for dinner, and it was really good. Monday Brian and I went out to lunch and then picked up Jacob from his first day of 8th grade, we got to visit with our old Edison Middle School Principal, Mrs. Clevenger. Grandma Pat took us all out to dinner at Sizzler on Monday night, and it was very sweet of her. Monica wasn't able to go because she was work. Tuesday I got to hang out with Monica and Shelby, and then we went to pick the boys up from school and left for Long Beach. my flight got delayed by an hour, and I was so tired and hungry but I had refused to buy anything at the airport, because airport food is far too expensive. As I was walking out of the gate, I saw my high school friend, Ilia. Turns out she works at the Long Beach airport! So that was fun. The flight wasn't too fun, but it went by quickly and my good friend, Bri, picked me up at the SLC airport, and I was home by 1 AM. Glad I didn't have to work Wednesday and I got to sleep in a bit. Below are some photos from my trip, hope you enjoy them! And I hope everyone who's in school this semester, has had a great first week and does well!

I made Brian a bday cake!
Brian and I!

Kyleigh and I, she came over for Brian's bday :)

Before we left for dinner and the movie, we goofed around and took some fun pictures with my fun friends. (Left to Right: Sarah, Seth, Kyleigh, Marissa, Brian and I).

Brian and I at the movie. Those 3D glasses were hot!

It was SO pretty on the drive home to Bakersfield!

Jacob and I doing kissy faces.
We drove by my old dance studio. Just seeing it brought back tons of great memories!
Shelby playing with Luke in the backyard on Sunday.
We kept putting a towel on Luke, and it was funny. After a while, he just sat there haha.

The family chicken kept clucking, so here's a small video...

Shelby making dinner on Sunday :)
Brian and I went to Dewar's and got Lemon Flake milkshakes. We also took one to Grandma Pat, before we went to pick up Jacob from school :)

Jacob, Brian and I goofing off with my camera before we left for Long Beach.
Ezra and I. He had broken his nose the week before, by way of skateboarding :(
Monica and I :) Before we left for Long Beach.

Just A Few Things On My Mind...

2011-08-10T14:48:00.000-07:00

**Had to re-install Windows 7 on my Dell laptop a few days ago and lost ALL my music and photos...not too happy about that. I had most of my music backed up, but not all my photos. Guess when you lose something, it makes you that more grateful for what you do have.

**I get to go home to Bakersfield, CA in less than two weeks to see my family. Can't wait! I just need for my Supervisor to post the new Fall Schedule at my job, so I can get my 3 shifts covered...

**Got Vanessa Carlton's newest cd, Rabbits On the Run, and I'm really liking it!

**I don't have a scale, but I'm pretty sure I'm losing weight all thanks to my Personal Training class and my awesome friend, Bri, who's been going on jogs with me! (Most of my clothes barely fit me right now!)

**I'm going to be in a flash mob next week, dancing to "Party Rock Anthem" by LMFAO! My roommie/friend, Marissa, is putting this together for her sister's wedding reception, it's a surprise...but the dance routine is FAST and fun! I've always wanted to be in a flash mob too, so I'm excited :)

**I love how long my hair is getting, BUT I need to do something with it and very soon. The color is bothering me and I need at least another trim, especially in this heat! Any opinions would be great!

**I love my singles ward, and most of the people in it! Wish I didn't have to miss FHE on Monday nights...I have my PT class on Mondays and Wednesdays from 7-8 PM :)

tHe LoNeLy

2011-07-24T13:18:00.000-07:00

I love this song by Christina Perri. I've felt like this too many times before, so this song is close to my heart. She is such a good artist who only writes songs from the heart. It's so easy to relate to her music and seeing as music means so much to me, her cd really helps me when I'm feeling down. All I have to do it listen to it and I start to feel better.

Hope you enjoy the music video.

Things On My Mind...

2011-07-05T20:21:00.001-07:00

Just thought I'd share a few things that have been on my mind recently, and update you all on what's been going with me:

1. Can I just say how much I LOVE the summer?! I'm enjoying this weather while I can, because in just 3 months or less, it'll be snowing again. I'm getting a tan too, it's nice having a pool where I live!

2. I REALLY want to go somewhere this summer! Even if it's just to Vegas or to spend the weekend somewhere, besides HERE. I need a vacation away from my life right now! Ahhh! I really might go crazy from doing the same thing every week...

3. The Caylee Anthony case--So, Casey Anthony (the mother), definitely knows how her little girl was killed and knows pretty much everything. It's not right that the verdict is "not guilty", it's too bad they didn't have more evidence. The facts all point to her. I don't know if she actually killed her child, but she was apart of however it all went down. Who parties days after her child goes missing? Gets a tattoo "Life is Great"? Makes up a story about a nanny who doesn't exist, kidnapping her daughter? What mother would wait a WHOLE month to report her child kidnapped/missing?? Plus, she lied about pretty much everything. Just watch the videos of her reaction when the verdict was read...she knows she just got away with whatever it is she did. That's okay though, justice will be served to her...if not in this life, in the next. Plus, her life is pretty much over anyways, since everyone knows who she is, etc. And also, since most people don't agree that she should just walk free. I really hope she doesn't plan on having any more children. Not because I believe she actually murdered her daughter, but because of child negligence, abuse, and something has to be seriously wrong with her.

4. Doctor Who--I just recently started watching this show on Netflix and it's actually pretty entertaining. I'm usually not one for British television, but I actually like this show, so kudos to the creators!

5. Dating--Let's just say I'm gonna keep on focusing on myself. I don't need a man to make me happy or complete me. Dating is rough and I almost just want to give up, just say "Forget it". But I still have hope whoever it is I'm supposed to be with will show up in my life one of these days, just hopefully not too late. I don't want to start having kids in my 30's.

6. I now have a personal trainer! I only pay $50 a month, and it'll be for 6 months! I really like my gym, it's great! Anyways, my personal trainer really works me and she's more like Bob from Biggest Loser. I don't think I'd appreciate someone with Jillian's personality yelling at me and bossing me around. I already do well enough on my own. I also get to make a lifestyle change on how I eat. It's not a diet either. So no more soda, candy, ice cream, or fast food for me.

7. I'm really disappointed in a friend right now. I need to speak with this person and help them to see the decisions they're making will have a bad outcome. I'm almost in the same boat as this person, yet I stay strong and work on making myself better. I hope I can help them out.

8. I've been watching "So You Think You Can Dance?" (SYTYCD) lately, and I love this show! But every week's new episode makes me miss my dancing days. Practice every week, learning new moves, making new friends, getting to dance, recitals, costumes, etc. I think after I lose my targeted weight, I'll join another dance class...either jazz or hip hop. I do like contemporary, but I'm more of an upbeat music type of person :) But yeah, some of the dances/performances bring me to tears sometimes, because I believe music is an expression of someone's soul. You can totally tell when someone is dedicated to dance and how they express themselves through dance. It's great to watch. The judges are pretty funny too.

Well, those are the few things on my mind right now. I hope all of you are having a great summer and I apologize it's been a while since I've posted anything on here. Sometimes I'm really busy, and sometimes I have nothing going on.

Slideshow of Yearly Events, Part 1

2011-06-06T22:16:00.000-07:00

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Another Year Older, Weddings & Christina Perri

2011-06-03T18:50:00.001-07:00

I can't believe in about two weeks, I'll be 25...it's crazy to think about, because I don't feel like I'm getting older. It's kind of sad that I'm still only in my mid-twenties and most of my friends are married and starting families. I think I might be leaving Utah in the next few years if there's nothing keeping me here.

In other news, I've just been working lots and saving up money for some kind of vacation this summer. Who knows? Most of my friends are too busy, so we'll see. I've been talking to someone new, his name is Chris, and we'll see how that goes :) It's been a while since I've been "in a relationship" with someone and it'll take me a while before I let my guard down again, because of what I've been through with past boyfriends.

Recently, one of my best friends got married. I was one of her bridesmaids and I took a lot of great photos. I'll list a few below! I'm soo happy for her, and her husband is a great guy!

Kyleigh, Bridgette, & I!! These girls are the best!!!

Beau and Bridgette :)

Kyleigh and I!!

Their first dance as husband and wife :)

I got to see my old roommate, Amy! She's expecting a baby girl this month!!

I hope everyone is doing well, and I apologize that it's been a while since I've posted something on here...I'm not home too often and when I am, I have to do chores or I go straight to sleep.

Below is a cute music video that I really like right now:

Cold Weather & Taxes

2011-02-01T20:08:00.001-08:00

Well, today has been a coldest day I think I've ever experienced here in Utah. The high today was 17 degrees and the low is at 2 degrees. As I was walking into work today, the freezing wind kept hitting me and I could hardly breathe. Let me just say, I cannot wait until Spring, when it gets warmer. In other news, I got my taxes filed. I never got my W-2 form in the mail, so I had to talk to my HR department and they printed out a copy for me. Wonder who got my form. I'm very happy with what I'm getting back even though there was over $5000.00 taken from me in 2010, oh well. That's what this country is coming to anyways, right? Anyways, hope you all are having a great 2011 so far and working on those resolutions I know you came up with!

"We No Speak Americano" Video

2010-12-22T10:38:00.001-08:00

Thought I'd share this video with you all! I really like it and I've watched it many times now:

Year In Review: 2010

2010-12-19T18:15:00.000-08:00

I'm going to start doing my own "year in review" at the end of each year. This will be the first evaluation...

A First For Me: I bought my first laptop and camera.

Goals/Resolutions I achieved: Working out more and purchasing my own laptop.

Major Life Changes: Nothing too major.

New Friends: Made a few new friends at work and church this year :)

New Additions to My Family: My niece, Eliana Jean, born in March!

Best Photo You Took: (See below)

Favorite Love Song of the Year: Bloodstream by Stateless & Pretty Girl Rock by Keri Hilson

Best Movie of the Year: Inception

Best Vacation: Trip to Vegas and CA with my friends. Got to see my family too!

Best Music Video:

If I Die Young by The Band Perry

Best New TV Show: Persons Unknown & Hot In Cleveland & Modern Family

Best Album of the Year: I have to go with Waking Up by One Republic & Speak Now by Taylor Swift

Best New Artist: Kid Sister & Dev

2011 New Year's Resolutions: No one will push me around or make me feel inferior without my consent. I will make new friends who lift me up and help me become a better person. I will lose up to 50 lbs and re-do my entire wardrobe. I will visit my sister and her family for Ellie's 1st bday in March. I will attempt to visit Megan during the summer. I will always have a good attitude and be more open to trying new things. And last, but not least, I will work on making myself a better person, so I will gain happiness.

'Tis the Season

2010-12-17T21:27:00.000-08:00

...For Family, Friends, Fun and Love!

Below are a few things I thought I'd share with you all--

#1 We've been having little contests and whatnot at work for Christmas, and today was a painting contest with microsoft paint, and here's what I submitted. I got quite a lot of compliments and took a good 2 hours between calls to make this:

#2 This past Sunday I had a small Christmas party/gift exchange at my place. Although there was unwanted drama with a friend, who shall remain nameless, we had lots of fun and I got some really great & thoughtful gifts from my wonderful, caring friends. Here are a few photos below:

Bridgette got me this Audrey Hepburn "Life In Pictures" book!!

It's got quotes and tons of photos of her throughout her lifetime :)

Also from Bridgette, a photo film strip that's now hanging on the wall in my room!

Kyleigh got me a digital photo frame! I'd been wanting one for a while :)

#3 Thought I'd share that I can't wait to go home next Thursday and see my family! I'm sad I won't be able to see Keri, Merrill and Ellie though :( But I'm planning on flying out to Portland in March for Ellie's 1st bday! Speaking of the cute lil' one, here's a couple photos of her that Keri recently posted:

Love this photo of Ellie! How she's sitting and looking at the camera/Keri :)

Family Time During Christmas Time

2010-12-14T12:59:00.001-08:00

I put this cute little video together for Christmas, enjoy!! Hope all of you are having a good holiday season so far!!

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"Better Off the Way It Is"

2010-12-02T14:59:00.001-08:00

"Run & Tell That!"

2010-11-30T18:21:00.000-08:00

A few things on my mind...

Number 1 I'd like to share something that happened to me last night while I was sleeping...and it wasn't something good. Have you ever had a leg cramp wake you up while you're sleeping?? Yeah, I got a leg cramp in my right calf and it woke me up last night. It hurt like nothing I've ever felt before and I was on the verge of tears. (I think I would've cried had I not been just sleeping). I've only had this happen a couple of times in my life, but when it does it's the worst thing in the world. I finally grabbed my calf and moved onto my side until sleep found me again. Just thought I'd share that experience.

Number 2 I dyed my hair on Sunday and it actually turned out how I wanted it this time. I usually go visit the hair salon, but I didn't see the point in paying $60+ for getting my roots touched up. Also, I found ANOTHER grey hair! Not cool.

Number 3 Christmas. It can be sooo stressful and easy to forget what Christmas is really about. I recommend taking the time to just relax and try to see the true meaning of Christmas this year. I've already got most of my shopping done with...this year will definitely be less busy and stressful, compared to last year.

Number 4 The snow. I usually don't mind the snow, but this year we've already gotten soo much here in Utah and the cold and the wind just make it that much worse. I ask myself the same question every year when winter makes it's appearance...WHY do I still live here??!

Number 5 I saw the video below last week, Brian showed it to me. It is hilarious! I can't believe I didn't see this until just a week ago! If you haven't watched it yet, please do! It WILL make you laugh...and if it doesn't, you just plain don't have a sense of humor. Enjoy :)

ALSO, here is an auto-tuned remix LOL!!

Beautiful EyEs

2010-11-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

"...For beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness. For poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone." -Audrey Hepburn

It's the Best Time of the Year

2010-11-21T19:59:00.000-08:00

That's right!! It's the holiday season! I love this time of the year. And don't get me wrong, it can be pretty stressful on one, but it really is my most favorite time of the year...and here's why:

--Thanksgiving

--White Chocolate covered Oreos

--Christmas shopping

--Wrapping gifts

--Getting to wear my winter boots and cute scarves

--Writing out season's greetings to friends and family

--Spending time with family

--ALL the yummy food to eat

--Christmas parties

Etc...

I hope all of you are having a wonderful holiday season so far!

All These Things On My Mind.

2010-11-07T18:02:00.000-08:00

Things on my mind today...

1. I really miss a full house and my family. Usually, I only cook for myself or do things alone now-a-days. Kinda can't wait until I have a family of my own one day.

2. I've been watching Doll House and it's actually a good show!

3. Christmas. I STILL need to get all my Christmas shopping done.

4. I really need a new camera, and I will get one this month!

5. Sometimes I feel like my friends could care less about what I want and need, seems like they only think about themselves. It makes me sad.

6. I really like Taylor Swift's newest cd, Speak Now. It's so easy to relate to what she sings about and she's so genuine.

7. I hate gossip. I know sometimes I do it, and I need to work on that. It's not your business what other people do, unless it concerns you.

8. I'm ready for winter--to wear my new winter clothes and boots, but not ready for the snow that falls every year. It lasts too long.

9. Sometimes I wish I wasn't as tall as I am. It makes it hard to wanna wear heels.

10. I miss my friend, Colette. I can't wait until she moves back here, so we can hang out and talk.

Toxic!!!

2010-10-17T15:01:00.001-07:00

This is from over two years ago. My friends and I were goofing around and dancing to Toxic by Britney Spears. Enjoy watching!!

25 Things You May Not Know About Me...

2010-09-29T20:25:00.000-07:00

Here's 25 Random things about me:

1. I like my soda flat, I can't really stand the carbonation.

2. My hair is really thick and I have to get it thinned out every few months.

3. I have really brittle finger nails, and I have to carry around nail clippers and a nail file in my purse.

4. I recently got a gym membership and I love going! I love running on the treadmill to a fun, upbeat song. And my friends tell me they can see a difference, that I'm losing weight :)

5. I have a ton of random, small scars all over my body, especially on my arms and knees. My arms from burning myself on ovens and my bunny scratching me. My knees, from falling down a lot as a child :(

6. I've worked at my job for over 4 years. I can't believe I have been there for that long. It's not bad, I just would like something new.

7. I love collecting inspirational quotes. I should make a book of my favorite quotations one day.

8. I'm not too big on going 80s dancing anymore. I think I've gotten too old, I can't stand all the crazy drunken people, the heat, and I'm sick of hearing the same 80s songs played over and over again. I don't mind YSA dances, because I can meet people my own age who share my same beliefs and standards, not to mention meet cute guys!

9. I would like to post a blog everyday, but I run out of ideas for what to write about. So sometimes I just post surveys, music videos, and quotes.

10. I can't stand when my hands are dirty or sticky. I have to at least put on hand sanitizer if I'm not near a sink with hand soap.

11. I've never had braces, I have always been lucky to have straight teeth.

12. I can't whistle at all.

13. I've never broken a bone or had surgery.

14. I trim my own bangs.

15. My favorite smell from Bath and Body Works is currently tied between Creamy Pumpkin and Midnight Pomegranate.

16. I'm on a mission to find the next great purse that's suitable for me. I will miss my coach purse though, unless I buy a new one, but I don't know if I wanna spend $300 for a purse right now.

17. I applaud all of my friends who have kids. I love kids to death, but I can't see myself having children right now. I still need "me" time and still need my own freedom.

18. I'm not ready for marriage at this time, but I hope to be married by the time I'm 30.

19. I think I'll be a cat for Halloween this year.

20. One of my guilty pleasures is watching Sabrina, the Teenage Witch right now :) I have all the seasons except for the last season which I'll buy soon.

21. I'm kinda excited for Fall this year: Hoodies, Halloween, crunchy leaves, the smell of rain, haunted houses, etc.

22. I'd never had my eyebrows waxed until last week, and it really didn't hurt that bad.

23. I hate when I get a call from a fake company, when the person calling is Middle Eastern, and they are trying to scam me. It's happened twice now and both times I have reported it to the police and on the FBI website. They are scum and they won't get my time or hard-earned money. They can take their phones and shove them where the sun don't shine! Lol.

24. I always have to have chap stick on me...I can't stand having my lips dry.

25. I recently signed up with Netflix for only 8.99/month. It's awesome and it's a lot cheaper than renting even 2 movies a month at blockbuster or something.

Stuck Like Glue...

2010-09-20T16:39:00.000-07:00

This is a new song and music video that I find amusing. The video is pretty funny. Enjoy!!

Who Made You King of Anything??

2010-09-14T18:42:00.000-07:00

Thought I'd share this music video with you all. I love the song!!

SuRvEy TiMe

2010-09-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

Age: 24

Availability: Single, but I don't really care about dating right now...

Annoys you: Loud people, Obama and his administration, feet

Bed size: queen-size

Birthday: June 19th

Brand name: Forever 21

Candy: Twizzler's Cherry Nips and Cow Tails!

Cried last: last night, feel like crying right now

Can't: believe how alone I've felt recently :(

Dessert: brownies with ice cream

Daydream: quite often

Day of the week: Sunday, no work and get to relax after going to church

Easy to do: help others

Eggs: sunny side up

Flower: Pink carnation

Favorite color: hot pink and magenta

Fruit: watermelon, raspberries, and kiwis

Giver or taker: Giver

Gold or silver: Silver

Graduation: High School-2004

Height: 5' 9''

Hair: wish it was longer already

How are you: Alright, I guess. I need to make some changes in my life though...

Ice cream: Cheesecake

Instrument: none

Jobs: Past - Sonic, Training Table...Present-TCH LLC Customer Service Lead

Jewelry: earrings and necklaces, sometimes rings

Jelly Bean: Dr. Pepper or Popcorn flavored

Kids: Truly yearn to have kids one day...

Kindergarten: Cute lil kiddos

Lunch: usually just eat a late breakfest, never really lunch

Lie: hard for me to

Laid back: most of the time

Movies: chick flicks, horror, mystery

Magazine: Allure, Glamour

Music to sing: Alicia Keys, Carrie Underwood, Vanessa Carlton, Beyonce, Paramore

Night or day: Day

Newest item bought: Satin Hands set from Mary Kay :)

Number: don't really have a favorite #

One wish: be married in temple one day to the man of my dreams

Pet peeve: Loud people, people who only talk about themselves/have to be center of attention

Personality trait: quiet, caring, girly-girl, good-hearted, good listener, etc.

Paranoid: about too many things on my mind right now...

Quote: "I had no shoes and I complained, until I met a man who had no feet."

Quick to: move on, forget about hardships, etc.

Quiet or loud: quiet

Right or left handed: right-handed

Random: putting the shuffle on my ipod

Siblings: Shelby, Monica, Keri, Brian

Season: Spring

Sun or rain: Sun

Time of the day: 5pm...When I get off work on the days I do work

Travel: wanna fly to Portland to see my niece, Ellie :)

Teacher: can have a great influence on you

Underarm deodorant: I use Ban, it works well

Veggie: celery, sugar snap peas

Vacation: need another one

Worst habit: touching my face or hair too much, complaining/talking more than needed

Worst fear: being alone all my life, never having kids, not being truly happy with myself, etc.

Why you run late: sometimes forget to set alarm clock

X-rays: chest when I had valley fever 5 years ago

Yummy food you make: sweets, stir-fry, breakfest foods, etc.

Yellow: the sun

Yearn for: happiness, someone to love me and I love them in return

Zoo animal: koalas

Zodiac: Gemini

These Things On My Mind...

2010-09-06T21:19:00.000-07:00

There's been a lot on my mind lately, and I would like to share...

1) Life isn't fair. BUT it is worth it. All of the trials and hardships we're put through can only make us stronger, right? Even if, at the time, it seems like our whole world is falling apart and there's hardly anything left to hope for? Even if you feel like no one cares and you don't matter? This is how I've felt recently, like I just want to give up. Throw my hands up and be done with it all. But I can't, I need to work on things to make myself a better person, to prepare myself to enter the temple, to help me be the mother my future children will admire and love whole-heartedly. To be a better example to my friends, co-workers, etc. To be a stronger person, who believes that what the future holds is nothing in comparison to riches, but more.

2) I wish I had known my parents better. I hardly have any memories of them, and I constantly have dreams where I search for them and as soon as I see them, I wake up. I would like to be able to ask them questions about when I was a baby, who I'm more similar to, etc. I guess I will hold the memories I do have of them dearly and be grateful for what I have.

3) I wish my family lived closer to me. I would love to talk to Monica in person about issues I have, or questions I have. I would love to see my baby niece, Ellie, and play with her. I would like a closer relationship with my younger sister, Keri. I would love to play rock band on the Wii with my two handsome nephews, Jacob and Ezra, and ask them about school and other activities. I would like to talk to Shelby in person and joke around, etc. And I would love to be there for my younger brother, Brian, more than I already am. I would love to sit and talk with my Grandma Pat and ask her questions about my parents and hear stories about her childhood, etc. Family is so extremely important to me, and I love all of my family with all of my heart. I honestly and truly don't know where I'd be today without their love and support. I yearn to have a family of my own someday and raise in them in the Gospel. Sometimes this is all I think about, even though I'm not ready for becoming a wife or a mother at this time in my life. I still have a few things I need to work on, before I can give myself and my time to someone else and then children.

4) I recently started using Proactive. It is working wonders! I've tried so many types of facial cleansers and they've all failed. I don't have bad skin or anything, but recent obstacles have caused me to breakout. I started using Proactive about 3 weeks ago and my face has almost cleared up. I suggest this, and it's cheaper if you become a member on their website :)

5) One of my goals is to make more friends in this next year. Recently, a good friend moved away. She only moved to Logan, about an hour from where I live, but I'm used to seeing her at least once a week and she just had a baby in July and I'd like to help out and be there for her. Also my sister, Keri, had planned on moving up here to Utah from Oregon, and that changed at the last minute. It feels to me that I'm losing friends and people who mean a lot to me, and it's hard not being to see them, etc.

6) I've been feeling lonely lately. Like there's a part of me that's missing, like I'm not whole. I don't know if that makes sense. But I need to make more friends, so I can keep my mind off unpleasant thoughts about myself and things I fail at. I'm so grateful to my friends who have been putting up with me, and sometimes my complaining. That just means they're true friends, to the end :)

--These are the things that are constantly on my mind. I hope you all can relate to how I've been feeling. Thanks to those who put up with me and help me and support me, you mean the world to me.

Vegas & Cali Vacation RePoRt

2010-08-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

I've been home for a week now from my vacation to Vegas and L.A. It was so much fun! I took a ton of photos and we got to see all kinds of interesting things. Vegas was fun, but it smelled like sewer sometimes and it was kinda dirty. Next time I go there, I will mostly stay in my hotel/casino. We stayed at the Luxor and it was really nice for how cheap it was. Los Angeles was fun too. Hollywood is kinda dirty as well, but that's what any tourist attraction will be like, right? We went to the Santa Monica Pier, Third Street Prominade, Rodondo Beach, Hollywood, Madam Tousseud's Wax Musuem, attempted to go clubbing, and saw my family in Bakersfield the last night! I've created a montage below of some of the photos I took, along with a few videos. Enjoy!

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Candle Wax, Vacation & Illegal Immigration

2010-07-26T18:10:00.000-07:00

Last weekend was Pioneer Day and a few friends and I set off some small fireworks, and played guitar hero. I took a lot of pictures! Also I went to Provo to see Brian and we had a fun day shopping, eating at Red Robin, spilling candle wax down my shirt (oh wait, that was just me), eating yummy ice cream, and watching a random but fun movie. About the candle wax part of the story...I saw Brian had a candle and went to smell it, it was up higher and when I grabbed it the wax spilled all down my shirt and chest. Needless to say, I had to buy a new shirt that day in Provo.

I get to go on vacation in two weeks and I cannot wait. I need to get out of Utah, even if it's only going to be for 5 days...I'm tired of being here and dealing with a breakup, yet still having to see that everyone around me is getting married or having a baby. I don't think I can deal with it too much longer. This vacation could not come at a better time.

Can't wait to see palm trees!!

We'll be staying in West Hollywood, and we'll get to see the Hollywood sign!!

So, everywhere I go I hear about Illegal Immigration and Mexico and Obama, etc. Well here are a few of my views and opinions on it:

1. I do not care what race or color you are, if you come here illegally, then you should be punished. It is against the law and Obama planning to give amnesty to these people is wrong. It's our tax money that we work hard for, and these immigrants ARE NOT citizens here, and have NO say.

2. I'm ALL for them coming if, but ONLY if they do it the right way...like most other immigrants.

3. I'm not at all racist, but I'm tired of Mexico's citizen's coming here illegally and then having NO respect for our country, bringing drugs and violence. In fact, I was reading comments on an article on msn.com yesterday about the AZ Bill, and someone had the nerve to go on there and state the following:

"We ar here, and more ar coming. Yur goverment will never solve the immigration issue. Yur goverment is broken. Republicans and Democrats argu and point fingers.....get nothing done. El Presidente Caulderone orders yur goverment around. There is nothing u can do - we have YUR riights. VIVA MEXICO!" -Roberto 1029112

As you can see from the quote above, these people need to leave and soon! They don't belong here, especially if this is how they speak, etc. Make sure and vote Obama and his followers out of office in November! We don't need these type of people in our offices, we need a government that will actually LISTEN to the people of this country and do what's best for them.

4. I support AZ and their new bill, other states need to do the same.

5. This has nothing to do with race, so people need to STOP playing the race card.

6. Wouldn't you think that other immigrants who worked hard to become citizens in this great nation are upset and fed-up with these illegals tresspassing, and taking free handouts. They get paid under the table, and have to pay NOTHING. So, in all reality, they make more than we do.

7. Have you read Mexico's Immigration Law?? It's 10 times worse than Arizona's! And they want to sue AZ for it, when it hasn't even been passed?? Can you say, hypocrites?? Plus, they have NO right to sue AZ, they need to control their own country first. Another point, they don't have ANY jurisdiction here to even do so.

8. Last, but not least, close the borders! This is the best solution to this problem.

"Ask not what the government can do for you. Ask it why it doesn't." -Gerhard Kocher

"However, in recent years our nation has seen a sizable influx of illegal immigration that at best highlights some alarming inadequacies and at worst indicates a broken system."

-Spencer Bachus

"Illegal immigration is crisis for our country. It is an open door for drugs, criminals, and potential terrorists to enter our country. It is straining our economy, adding costs to our judicial, healthcare, and education systems." -Timothy Murphy

"It is vitally important that we implement immigration reform. We need a bill that strengthens our borders and protects this nation, but that also makes it simpler for good people to become Americans." -Dave Reichert

Anyways, below are some fun pictures from Pioneer Day:

What I thought of the loud fireworks...

Kyleigh snapping poppers between her fingers, I didn't like doing it as much...

Tyler the pyro lol, jk he does love messing with fire though...if you can't tell from this picture.

Kyleigh and I :)

Tyler and Kyleigh lighting off some fireworks...

"One Chance To Get Everything Right"

2010-07-18T19:34:00.000-07:00

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe less so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” -Marilyn Monroe

Guess it's been a while since I've posted a blog, huh?? There's nothing really new to write about, except that Tyler and I have broken up :( It was mutual, but more that he wanted it. He didn't think we'd be happy where we were, not moving forward or progressing. He thinks he's holding me back from finding someone else, and he's not ready for marriage, which I told him I'm not either. But you can't force someone to stay in a relationship if they want to work on themselves and take a break from dating, right?? We are going to strive to be friends, so we'll see how that goes...Other than that, I've been okay as can be. I am so appreciative of all my friends and family. I couldn't ask for better family and friends, really. This break up hasn't been the best for me, I hate feeling so alone but what can I do? I'm single again and feel like I'll never find someone, and I know it seems silly to say but all the guys I've dated just take away piece of me that I'll never get back. I'm not saying these guys are jerks or losers (well, a few of them were), but it kills a part of me every time this happens :( At least Tyler is a really good guy and still wants to be around me, and strive to be friends. I will miss his family dearly though, I was getting close to them. His mom was so sweet and caring, and she has set the bar high for whoever my mother-in-law is in the future. I'll very much miss seeing them every Sunday. Oh well, things change and people change unfortunately :(
On a happier note, my friends and I are going to California next month to visit L.A. and probably Vegas too, Kyleigh has never been to either place. I'll stop by on the way home to see my wonderful family too!
Beth and Jon had their baby boy last week, his name is Ian Jonathan and he was almost 10 lbs! Both mom and baby are doing great!! He is a real cutie ;)
Here's a few pictures from the past month or two, not in any particular order...

Love this picture at Temple Square, it's the background on my laptop right now :)

Ezra and I doing kissy faces, it was his suggestion!

Everyone at Wingers on my birthday! They ALL mean so much to me! :)

Me and Tyler on my birthday (Who knew we'd become just friends a few weeks later..?)

Monica and Brian made me a cake! Monica decorated the cake, and spelled my name with 2 N's!

The boys and I doing kissy faces at the duck pond! :)

At the Modest Mouse concert in SLC last weekend...it was free, so the crowd was wild!

Baby Ian and I, wish I had worn make up that day...

Kyleigh & I about to see Eclipse! You can see my small "I heart Vampires" pin haha.

Eliana and Keri!! I was talking to them on Skype and Eliana was in such a happy mood, so I snapped some shots of her...she's such a little cutie pie!! :)

Recognizable Photographers...Well, Just One

2010-05-03T16:21:00.000-07:00

William Eggleston.

Who is he?
He was a great photographer in the 1960's and took amazing photos of just everyday life. I really like his photos. I've posted a few below, have fun looking at them!

Camera Recordings and Kenna...

2010-05-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

Below is a video of Tyler recording Kenna...who gets upset at him since he is snapping at her and she thumps at him. While he was recording I was yapping away, having no idea he was recording anything.

$$ Bunnies, New Laptop, & Conference

2010-04-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

"The way to gain a good reputation, is to endeavor to be what you desire to appear."
--Socrates

I've made some changes to this blog recently...a new music playlist, a new background layout and a slide show of Tyler and I.

I recently got a new laptop. It's a Dell Studio and Tyler found a good deal on it, it was only $399.00!! It's got a 17-inch screen and it's so much nicer than the old dinosaur desktop I had for the last two years :) But I'm still grateful to you, Brian, for getting that dinosaur computer, it helped out!! ;) Here is a few pictures of it below:

Now, onto the $$ Bunny part of this blog! On Easter, we spent the day at Tyler's parents' house and since I have a cute lil' bunny, his mom made me a bunny out of a dollar bill. It's cute, and I have it sitting on my dresser! Here's a photo of it:

I watched Conference a few weekends ago, and I really loved the talk about mothers and daughters by Russell M. Ballard. I really enjoyed this talk, and it made me realize that I want to be a wonderful mother to my future daughter(s), I want to be able to lead them towards the light and be able to teach them well enough, so that when they grow up and go out on their own, they'll be righteous Daughter(s) of God, and be able make a difference to others around them. I'm also very thankful to Monica, who is like my mother in so many ways. She sacrificed a lot in raising me and Keri, and she did a great job, seeing as we're well-off with where we are in our lives right now. Keri even just became a mother last month, and I know she'll do great raising Eliana and her other future children. I have a Testimony that as long as you're living the Gospel and living righteously, then you are preparing yourself to raise the future generations that Heavenly Father will be sending to you soon, and what a blessing it will be. I yearn to have a family through the Gospel one day and I cannot wait until I get see my first child come into this world. Even though I'm not ready for that Eternal family just yet, I know they're waiting for me. I know I will one day get married in the Temple and be able to feel Heavenly Father's love for me, receive my endowments, and get to stand right next to my prince, who I have been waiting for.

To ALL of you who are just finishing up the semester, good job for all the hard work you've done! It'll pay off when you get handed that Diploma, and you can go out in the world and work the job of your dream! Not to mention, no more school loans or being broke all the time ;)

PhOtO fReNzY

2010-04-13T18:39:00.000-07:00

I've been watching a new tv show called Fringe lately and I really like it. It's about Fringe science and there's an FBI team who investigates weird things that happen, things you wouldn't hear about or see ever. I recommend it, Tyler and I have been watching the first season when we spend time together.

I'm thinking about trying out the South Beach Diet, Kyleigh is on it right now and she's already lost more than 10 pounds. There's three phases, in Phase 1, you are restricted to only eating foods that are lean with protein, for two weeks and in those two weeks you're supposed to lose 8-13 lbs. Then there's Phase 2, where you add back wheat and bread and whatnot and once you get a handle on that, you go on to Phase 3 and you stay on Phase 3 to maintain a healthy lifestyle and only eat healthy foods. you are allowed sweets and whatnot, but only occasionally. Wish me luck, I think I'm going to start it this next week, and Tyler said he'll try it with me!

So I thought I'd share some fun pictures with you. I retrieved these from a few fun photo websites.

What Made My Week!!

2010-03-27T22:17:00.000-07:00

Here's a list of a few things that made my week, I thought I'd share with you all :)

1. My sister posted a photo of my cute little baby niece, Eliana, wearing a onesie I had bought for her, and she was making a kissy face like I always make. I thought it was too cute, and made my week!

2. We had a Customer Service Appreciation Luncheon at work, and I got a certificate for being there for 4 years! I also got a hot pink beach towel with the TCH logo!! Perfect for summer :)

3. I discovered a new song that I really like: Rhinestone Eyes by The Gorillaz

4. I bought a really cute key necklace at Rue 21 on sale!!

5. I went through ALL the boxes in my closet and threw out anything I didn't need, or has no more use to me. It's so much more organized and looks less cluttered than it used to.

6. I went to Crystal Hot Springs with my close friends, and got to relax in warm relaxing water. It was greatly needed.

7. One of my co-workers told me she appreciated me for all I do at work, when I was feeling down the other day.

8. I got to see a cute video of my niece making funny faces at my sister, because she was sleepy. It was cute.

9. My brother, Brian, called me!!

10. Tyler, my bf, told me I looked very pretty tonight before we went to The Pie Pizzeria for my friend's bday :)

Only In Dreams

2010-03-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

So, I had an odd dream last night, and I thought I'd share it with you.

I was living back in BakersfieId, and I remember I was walking to a friend's house when I noticed a suspicious guy was walking behind me, so I picked up my pace and started walking faster. Then at some point I was in his garage with his brothers and I was stabbed in my thigh...I remember crying and yelling at them to let me leave, and they eventually did. I was with someone, who in the dream was my brother, but it wasn't any of my two brothers, and I remember having so much trust for this person in my dream. So, I went home, still with the cut in my leg, and tried calling everyone I could think of. No one was answering my calls, and I remember feeling so lonely and scared and frightened, so I asked this brother if we could go home and when we got home there were scary guys waiting for us, and I finally realized he had betrayed me and I had no trust in him anyone. I remember feeling furious and so alone. At that point in the dream I woke up.

People say dreams are what's hidden in your inner conscious or whatever, but what would this dream mean?? I'm trying to figure it out, I remember waking up all shaken up and feeling exhausted like it had been real and even my left thigh was sore (where I had been stabbed in the dream), so I was a little spooked out. Maybe one of you could try to figure it out?? I might start recording my dreams here on my blog, they have been so upsetting lately, and I'm not sure why. And they always take place back home in Bakersfield, never here in Utah, which is very weird.

In other news, my niece is finally here! I'm soo excited, but upset I couldn't see her after she was born. Congrats again to Keri and Merrill! Welcome to this crazy, but wonderful world Eliana Jean Tew!!

Last Word

2010-02-27T11:30:00.000-08:00

Last Time I Traveled:
When I went home for Christmas, before that...Yellowstone in August of 2009.

Last Time I Laughed:
At a youtube video Tyler showed me

Last Meal I'd Like To Eat Before I Die:
Meal: Brushetta or Meatloaf, mashed potatoes with gravy, corn...For the drink, Yoohoo or Vitamin Water (fruit punch flavor)...For desert, brownies with vanilla ice cream on the side :)

Last Song I Downloaded:
Osaka Loop Line by Discovery from itunes

Last Weird Dream I Had:
I had a dream where I was back home in CA and for some reason, my mom was still alive and I remember in the dream that I was soo ecstatic to see her and finally talk to her. But before I could even say a word to her, I woke up.

Last Time I Felt Envious:
A few weekends ago, Bridgette, Kyleigh and I went to Barnes and Noble in Layton, and Bridgette knew about ALL the new books series and I didn't...I wish I was more up to date on all the good books out there, and that I read more like I used to.

Last Time I Hit The Snooze Button:
I never hit the snooze button, I usually get up before the alarm clock goes off and turn it off before I hear that annoying beeping.

Last Movie I Saw:
Valentines Day with Kyleigh and Beth, it was a cute one...but had way too many story lines and it was a little lenthy.

Last Time I Slept In:
Last Saturday, but I could only sleep in until 9 :( My body is getting too used to being up at 6 am every morning, for work :(

Last Time I Cried:
A few days ago, I was really stressed out and I'm trying to figure some things out right now. On top of that, I'm trying to deal with fraud on my darn bank account again, and it's really making me furious. Think I'll just get a new bank account, and get rid of Bank of America.

Last Song I Listened To:
Goodbye, Apathy--One Republic

Last Thing I Ate:
Toast with Nutella, soo good!

Last Restaurant I Ate At:
Javier's (Family-owned Mexican place in town) with Tyler...we were supposed to go to Olive Garden in Layton for his step-dad's birthday dinner, but it was cancelled and we were all dressed up anyways, so I told Tyler we should go there since it had been about 4 years that I'd been there. He really liked it :)

Last Time I Worked Out:
This past Monday, I was supposed to yesterday, but I never got time to.

Valentine's, Taxes, and Fashion

2010-02-10T14:32:00.000-08:00

I can't believe Valentine's Day is this weekend! Tyler and I are going to a Murder Mystery Party/Dinner in Brigham City this Saturday with a few of my other friends, it should be fun!

In other news, I filed my taxes last week and guess how much I am getting back?? Only a whopping $45.00 :( I feel like all I ever do is work and it's not really fair, in my opinion. But hopefully I get back more next year. Also, I now work early mornings at my job, but they offered me Saturdays off, so I work from 7am-3pm Monday-Friday now, and although it's been hard to adjust to, it's really nice, cause I have so much more time now to do other things during the day :)

I can't really think of anything else I need to update on here...but the last post is about my newest blog, Fashion Sense! It's just going to be a ton of posts about fashion and discounts, ideas, photos, etc. I'm a sucker for fashion, so I hope you all can go take a look at it and let me know what you think so far! I've also signed up with a survey website, where you get paid to take surveys based on certain profiles you fill out, and so far I've made $11.70, woot woot! The website is Surveyhead.com and you get $5 just to join! But I'm going to use this money to purchase the items that will be shown on my fashion blog, so I don't spend too much money out of my pocket.

Below are a few photos from when I was younger, have fun looking at them! Hope you're all having a good week so far :)

My mom holding me when I was a little baby :)

Me and Keri!

Me, Keri and Brian...Brian with Kirsten, his favorite toy as a child. R.I.P. Kirsten

Me, Keri, and Brian...First day of school, August 1994 I think :)

Brian, Keri, me and Shelby when I was 10 :)

ABC's #2

2009-12-05T20:41:00.001-08:00

Here's the second ABC list about me! It's been over 2 years, so I thought I'd do this again!

Easy as 1-2-3
A- age: 23
B- bed size: queen
C- Chore you hate: moping, and cleaning Kenna's litter tray :(
D- Dessert you love: brownies!
E- Essential start of your day: feeding Kenna
F- Favorite musical artist(s): Beyonce, Carrie Underwood, Alicia Keys, Taylor Swift, Michael Buble, etc
G- Gold or Silver: Silver
H- Have to Have: cell phone, lip gloss, ipod, and lotion
I- Instruments you play: kinda of the piano, but nothing else
J- Job title: TCH Customer Service Lead
K- Kids: Someday
L- Living arrangements: Share an apartment, have my own room :)
M- Most favorite month: December...holiday spirit, getting to see family, and parties
N- Nickname: Tiff
O- Ordered last on the internet: a Christmas gift for someone lol
P- Phobia: feet I guess lol
Q- Quote: "Just dance."
R- Right or Left handed: Right
S- Siblings: Shelby, Monica, Keri, Merrill, and Brian
T- Traffic tickets you've received: none
U- Unique Talent: I don't know...organizing/decorating?
V- Veggie you hate: Brussel Sprouts AND mushrooms
W- Worst habit: I pop my knuckles too often and play with my hair too much
X- What body part would you Xerox?: my face!
Y- Yummy food you make: nachos or spaghetti (hence, they're both REALLY easy to make!)
Z- Zodiac sign: Gemini

What I'm Thankful For...

2009-11-28T09:55:00.000-08:00

So I totally meant to post a blog on Thursday about everything I was thankful for, but never got around to it. Here's the list of EVERYTHING I am thankful for:

First of all, My FAMILY--
If it wasn't for my family, I don't where I'd be today. Shelby and Monica did such a fine job at raising us, even though they were very strict at times. But sometimes, being strict has it's benefits. I look up to them for how strong they were to take us in and do it all, like they did. I definitely couldn't see myself in their shoes when I was 21. Keri was always an example to me of what I should've been doing, whether it was my homework when she was or how patient she was with school and everything. I don't know how she did it all, but thank you Keri for your example and being a great sister to me! Brian, even though we were always arguing and fighting I still loved doing things with you. Remember when we'd play Monopoly or Battle Ship? Those were good times :) And I always love talking to you and when you visit me, or we get to go somewhere, you are such a fun brother! Jacob, you are such a smart, loving kid =) You are so sweet and mellow, and I loved reading books to you and making you "homework" when you were younger. Ezra, I love how crazy you can get! But you are still so loving and sweet :) I know you got your craziness from your dad, Shelby lol, there's no doubt about that, but it's fun to watch you sometimes and play games like Connect 4, even though you always won ;) I'm also thankful to all my other family members: Grandma Pat, Goergina, and everyone else! I love you all and thanks for being soo great! ;)

My FRIENDS--
f I didn't have the friends I had, I would feel so alone sometimes. They are always there to cheer me up, or make me laugh when I feel lonely and unsure. They are such fun people and I love them all for it! Kyleigh is always there to do something or go somewhere with me when I need to get out of the house or get my mind off something, and I can always talk to her about anything. Beth is always there to lend a listening ear, and has been my longest friend up here in Utah. I'm so glad that we are still good friends! Bridgette is such a fun, cute girl and it's soo fun to tease her sometimes, because of the way she acts :) She's always willing to drive up here from Layton to talk or keep me company when no one else will. She really helped me out last year when I was having a really hard time and had no family to lean on. Megan was always there for me, during my first few years of school and helped me deal with certain issues and gave me great advice. I'm glad I will get to go see her this January and her adorable kids :) Becca is ALWAYS there for me, even when she doesn't have the time or energy. She is like a sister to me, and always talks to me when I need it. I look up to her, and I don't know how she does it all; she's got two toddlers, works full-time, AND goes to school full-time! I couldn't be in her shoes, I can't even imagine how hard it can be for her sometimes, but she's a strong girl, puts her family first, and I admire her for it. Amy is my amazing roommate that has a really busy schedule as well and she always finds time to talk with me. She is the best roommate I've ever had, no joke. We've NEVER had an argument and she cleans up after herself :) She's getting hitched this next month and I'm sad to lose her as a roommate, but glad I gained her as a friend! To all my other friends, thanks for always being there, even if it was just to talk or go see a movie when I needed someone!

TYLER--
Ever since I've met Tyler, I haven't been lonely, like I was. He is like my best friend and I enjoy spending time with him, and even his family! He always cracks me up and likes to tease me :) I like that he is for the most part, always in a good mood and just being around him, lifts my mood. Thank you Tyler for being soo great, and doing all that you do!! ;)

KENNA, my bunny--
This little creature always brightens my day, and makes me laugh. She is soo curious, energetic, and adorable! Most of the things she does, makes me smile or laugh. I'm glad I adopted her :)

THE CHURCH--
I'm glad I have the church in my life. Without it, I wouldn't know who I really am or have standards to follow. I also wouldn't have the chance to look forward to going to the Temple one day, which is one of my big goals!

My JOB--
Even though my job can be stressful and even annoying at times, I am thankful for it. Most people don't have jobs, or have sucky jobs due to the economy, and I'm soo glad I still have this job :) I'm glad I get two pay checks a month, so I can pay my bills, rent and even buy a few nice things for myself or others!

The VAMPIRE DIARIES--
I LOVE this book series and tv show!

My IPOD--
I love music and my ipod holds a ton of music! Music always makes me feel better and feel less stressed out when I'm having a hard day.

There are many more things I'm thankful for, but I have to get ready for work. Also, thank you to all of those that read this blog and even sometimes leave comments! I love getting comments and knowing that others care about me and what goes on in my life! THANK YOU!! =)

In Other News: TwO iS bEtTeR tHaN oNe

2009-11-09T22:43:00.000-08:00

Sorry it's been a while since I've posted a blog on here. I do have some great news though! I've been dating someone for the last 2 months and I want to tell you about him! His name is Tyler Hardy and I met him through my friend, Holly. She was set on setting us up :) We also work in the same building, so I get to see him almost everyday. He is almost 24 (Dec. 10th) and he served his Mission in Texas, and speaks Spanish. Random tidbits: He has a large family, and likes to embarress me in public. He also likes to try and tickle me, but I always get him back. He is going into Electrical Engineering and is a genuis when it comes to computers. In fact, in his free time he likes to fix family and friend's computers, whether it be taking them apart or cleaning them out, etc. I really like him and he makes me happy :) He is such a gentleman and always opens doors for me, and asks how I'm doing, etc. I'm glad to have met him, especially when I was about to give up on dating.

In other news, I adopted a baby dwarf bunny from my friend Becca. I named her Kenna, after one of my favorite bands. She is so adorable and sweet, although there are times when she likes to chew on tv and computer cords, but I simply tell her "No" and she stops, it's amazing! She's also litter trained and has a little litter tray in her cage, but she still likes to scatter some of her pellets throughout the cage, as bunnies like to be territorial. When I first brought her home, she was a handful and a little difficult to get used to. Bunnies aren't as easy to hold and pick up as say...a kitten :) But I'm used to her and she's used to me now, so all is good. In another month or two, I will get her fixed. She brings happiness to my friends, roommate and to me :) She's soo funny to watch sometimes, she likes to do a "happy dance" where she runs around in circles and jumps up as she twists her rear end, it's cute.

Also, my friend Beth is pregnant and due in late June, so I'm really excited for her!

Keri and Merrill are having a girl!

I found a new roommate to take Amy's place when she moves out in December, since she's getting hitched! The wedding date is December 29th and I'm helping with the wedding music :) The new roommate's name is Marissa, and she'll move in right after Christmas!

Speaking of Christmas, I plan to go home for a few days with Brian. We talked about it today and we will more than likely leave on the 24th and drive home. But since I have to be back here by the 29th for my fabulous roommate's wedding, we will probably leave on the 27th or 28th :) I'm excited to visit the family and home! Sad that I won't get to see Keri and Merrill though :(

Have a new favorite book series/tv show! It's called The Vampire Diaries! I think I just might like it better than the Twilight series...just thought I'd share that with you all ;)

Here are some pictures of Tyler and the bunny, Kenna :) Enjoy!

Tyler acting goofy while I take a pic of us :)

Tyler dressed as a vampire for Halloween...the teeth didn't work out :(

This is my favorite picture of he and I

Again, Tyler acting goofy, as he usually does...

Halloween 2009--Tyler and I as Vampires

Both of us at a corn maze/haunted house...we were waiting in line to go into the haunted house!

Baby Kenna in her cage

Kenna in her litter tray, I don't think she liked me taking these pictures of her :(

Yellowstone Trip and Other Things

2009-08-30T18:24:00.000-07:00

So I got to go to Yellowstone National Park and camp there last weekend with all my friends. It was lots of fun, subtract some of the drama that went on and getting no sleep. I got to see Old Faithful and a ton of bison. There were also a ton of different tourists there, I'm pretty sure I heard German, Korean, and many more languages being spoken. Below are some pictures from the trip. I'm also going to post a picture of me and Becca's new puppy, Scout...who is so adorable :) Hope you all are doing wonderful and enjoy!!

Beth and I after setting up camp!

A geyser right by Old Faithful...there were a lot more!

The pretty Yellowstone Lake

These bison were RIGHT next to the road...I took this picture without zooming in or anything!

Old Faithful...

SOO pretty!

The whole gang...Beth, Jon, me, Jill, Kyleigh, Trey and Bridgette!

This is Becca's cute puppy, Scout :)

Birthdays & Shooting Stars

2009-07-05T19:24:00.000-07:00

Wow it's been a while since I've left a blog post on here, I apologize for that. I have a lot to catch you up on though...first of all, I recently had my birthday and turned 23. I got my hair done and went dancing, got to hang out with my friends and go dancing! Other than this news of my bday, I've just been working and enjoying the summer. I'm also trying to get somewhat of a tan. Below are pictures of my birthday events. Enjoy! And I hope you all had a wonderful 4th of July!! =)

The cake Beth made for me =)

Me and Ryan before going 80s Dancing

Bridgette and I =)

Posing with my new haircut

Kyleigh and I

Kyleigh and Beth at Ky's bday dinner

Me and Kyleigh, I was eating a "Mormon Muffin"

Brian and I!!

Kissy face time!

Being in two places at once, Brian, Kyleigh and Ryan on the border of Utah and Nevada!

Becca and I at her bday party!

Hello Goodbye

2009-04-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

It has been quite a month...
I got to see Keri and Merrill a few weeks ago, I met a boy but he's moving to Ohio for the summer (which is kinda sad but we're going to keep in touch), I dyed my hair for $4.00 all by myself, and whatnot.
It looks like I'll be able to be back in school by this Fall semester, although I still have no clue as to what I want to major in so I'm going to go for one semester and see what I want to do so I don't waste money taking classes I may not need in the long run. I also plan to buy my first car in the next few months after I get my Utah liscense. I went to the Federal Building today to get my SSN card since the last one I order was returned to them due to the fact that I had just moved and no longer lived at the apartment I was in when I replaced the last one which had been in my purse when it was stolen almost two years ago.
Anyways, just thought I'd update you all on what's been going on. Below are a few pictures from the last month. Hope everything is going well!!

Merrill, Keri and I making funny faces
Keri and I goofing off
Becca and I
Bridgette, Kyleigh, and I before the comedy show last Friday night

Greatest Man That Ever Lived

2009-03-31T21:03:00.000-07:00

Right now, I really really like the Red Weezer album! Not sure why, but it's soo good and I listen to it all day at work, when I'm cleaning, getting ready for work or anything. My most favorite song is "The Greatest Man That Ever Lived", it's soo fun to sing and listen to! Anyways, just thought I'd leave that for you all! Hope you're having a fabulous week so far!! =)

French Braids, Lady Bugs & Little Women

2009-03-16T21:22:00.000-07:00

This one's for you, Monica!!!!!!!!!

I don't even know where to begin...You have been the greatest "Mom" to me and to all of us! I'm not sure where I'd be today without you (and Shelby, of course!) I want to dedicate this blog to you =) You deserve it! You work so hard and will do anything for anyone. I remember all the times growing up when I'd come to you crying because of friend drama or not feeling well and you'd just comfort me and make me feel so much better, I'm not sure how I've been managing on my own for the last 5 years, but I do miss you and all the fun times. I remember when I wanted to learn how to french braid and you'd sit there patiently, show me how until I mastered it and then you'd let me practice on your hair. I loved playing with your hair! You are so patient and kind, loving and caring. I also remember how you would draw me in a dress with little lady bugs on them, I used to love it. Also, having those little sleepovers and watching Little Women when the boys went camping =) I'm glad you are part of my family, but you're more than that!

I am soo grateful for everything you and Shelby did for me and all of us growing up. Oh, how it must have been a struggle to sacrifice your time and friends and sometimes, each other. You have been an example to me from day one. I remember the first time I met you, I kept looking out of the living room window wondering who you were and what you were doing cutting Shelby's hair. I think I was only four years old, so you have been apart of my whole life, for the most part. I'm soo thankful for that too. I look up to you to have the strength and courage you have. You and Shelby will have immense blessings come your way for all the things you've done and will do. You have no idea how your example alone has helped me grow into the person I am today. There are times when I think I will breakdown or even die (not literally) and then I remember that things could be worse, that I need to focus on the positive things in my life, and that things will work out the way Heavenly Father intends them to. I see the way the boys look at you and they see you just like I do: A beautiful, loving, caring, kind, sensitive, and patient mother who will help anyone who needs it, whether it be a hug or talking with them. Someone who gives more than 100% and only strives to do better. I love your quirkiness, how you love to talk and only look for the best in others.

I want to apologize for all the hard times or stress I caused you. I'm pretty sure I gave you that gray hair on your head, and I'm so sorry for that! I know I was sometimes difficult to deal with, and I wish I could take those times back. I want things to be easy for you and the family, and I wish I could become a millionaire so I could buy you a nice, bigger house and pay for your schooling (as well as my own!). When other people at work or church...and even sometimes friends come up to me and tell me I turned out to be a respectful, patient, caring person, I tell them it was because of you and Shelby-with your examples and how well you both raised us. I truly appreciate ALL you do! When I'm having a hard time, I think about you and all my wonderful family members and I'm able to take a deep breath and feel comforted knowing who I have to talk to, turn to or sometimes vent to.

You are my friend, my sister, my mother and I look up to you. You are amazing in all of your qualities and everything you do ! I love you so much and words cannot even express how grateful I am to you and to Shelby for everything you sacrificed for us growing up =) I know that because of your strength, sacrifice, patience and commitment, you will be blessed in soo many ways! Again, I love you and want to let you know that you are fabulous in every way possible!!!!!!!!

Wedding Business & Photo Creativity

2009-03-08T18:01:00.000-07:00

As you can see below, there are a ton of different photos. I went to a few different websites and created neat-looking photos. So, Beth is married now and it's still hard to believe. I posted some pics from the wedding below. It was a fun but very busy and eventful day. It started on Thursday night and we went to TGI Fridays for dinner and then to Crystal Hot Springs to celebrate Beth's last night of being single. Then we went to the stake center in Layton where the reception was to be held and put everything together including all the decor for the wedding, etc. We all stayed the night at Kylegh's house so we could all drive to South Jordan together, where Beth and Jon were getting married, in the new Jordan River Temple. It was a beautiful temple but boy, was it freezing outside during pictures and all. Afterwards we went to SLC for a luncheon at the Lion House located in Temple Square, where we ate a late lunch and watched a slideshow and gave speeches for the bride and groom. After that, the other bridesmaids and myself went to a walmart nearby and got a few things to decorate Beth's car for their honeymoon. We then drove to Layton and arrived early, so we blew all the balloons for the car decor and took silly pictures. The reception started after that and Brian came up from Provo for it, it was really good to see him! We were at the stake center until 10 pm, because we had to clean up everything. So, all in all, it was a long and eventful day, but everything worked out and the whole day was soo much fun and it was good to see how happy Beth was, even though she hated all the picture taking. It made me realize how much I want to get married in the temple and also how much work a wedding is, and I am considering eloping (at the temple of course!) But it was a fun experience to share with friends and even Brian! I hope you have fun looking at some of the photos below!!

Out Of Control (State of Emotion)

2009-03-04T20:27:00.000-08:00

Wow. It has been a while since I've posted a blog on here. I apologize for that, as there's been other things going on or other things on my mind. So, where to begin? One of my best friend's is getting married in two days and I was pretty much her maid of honor, I'm really excited for her too! I had a fabulous Valentine's Day and the guy I went out with I really liked, but other things have happened and you live and learn, right? I also threw a bridal shower for my friend this past weekend and that was a blast I might say =) I'm fighting off a nasty cold which I hope goes away fast, so I'm not sick and all during the wedding and all of it's events on Friday. But don't worry, there are pictures of all these events and more below, as usual =) Have fun looking at them, and there'll be more to come since Beth's wedding is Friday! Ps--The title of the blog is actually the title of a song by the band Kenna!

Bridgette and I goofing off at her house...

We were dressing up Beth for her Bridals and having fun while at it!

Bridgette's sis colored my hair...I'm blond now...

Black & White photo...gotta love em!

Beth dressed up in streamers at her bridal shower, haha.

ALL the girls...me, Stefanie, Kari, Cassie, Kyleigh, Bridgette, Jill, Beth & Marie

ALL of us again at the shower, except for Jill who was taking the photo!!

Temples and Kenneth Cope

2009-01-11T18:32:00.000-08:00

So, I'd thought I'd write a different kind of post since most of the ones I put on here are mainly pictures/ events. So, today was Ward Conference in my singles ward and the theme was on preparing for the temple and personal worth. The stake leaders even passed out little books called, "Preparing To Enter the Holy Temple". Recently, everyone whether it be a church leader, friend or family member, has been telling me the way to prepare for marriage is really doing the things I need to do to prepare for the temple, and as long as I'm preparing for that, everything will work out as planned. And that really caught on to me today in church, because one of my biggest prayers were answered. Lately, I've been asking myself if there will ever come the time for me to go to the temple and be endowed with someone I love and want to spend eternity with. You know, seeing as most of my friends are already married or engaged. Well, I've always been one to see myself getting married, but as of yet nothing has happened to even let me view the kind of life I'd have and the blessings I would receive. But this is the year that I will prepare for the temple and do everything I'm commanded to do, so I can start searching for the one I will spend eternity with. In regards to doing this, I have signed up for an Institute class titled, "Scripture Study Fundamentals". I figured I could take this class for free since this is my last semester off from finishing up school, and seeing how it would help me and strengthen my testimony and all. I want to strive to be the best I can be and do the best I can. I honestly want to live with my Heavenly Father again someday and be able to see my parents again, including all my loved ones and people I've lost. Seeing as it is a brand new year, I have made resolutions to accomplish and begin this. I have faith that everything will work out for me and that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and loves me. I know I can pray to him and ask him for guidance and knowledge, and that he'll always be there. I'm so grateful for all the church leaders I had growing up, who taught me well and had only my best interest in mind. I'm especially grateful for Monica and Shelby who have taught me to the person I am today. Without them, I honestly don't know where I'd be. The love and support they gave me while growing up has led to me wanting to be the best person I can be. Thank you Shelby and Monica--for everything...you don't even know how much it is appreciated and I know all the blessings you receive are because of your love for us and the Gospel. Even though times get hard, we have to stay strong and continue on the straight and narrow.
In other news, my friends and I went to an Institute activity this last Friday night and saw Kenneth Cope perform. The messages he puts in his songs are so inspiring and uplifting--I need to buy one of his cd's at some point. Afterwards, we headed over to the school for a fun dance and enjoyed dancing and talking with friends. Actually, before the concert, we took some fun photos. Now I know that's all I ever put on here, but I like to show you all a glimpse of my world and what it's like through photos! I hope you enjoy them, and I hope you all have a tremendous week!

HoLiDaY hApPeNiNgS

2009-01-03T16:30:00.000-08:00

I though it about time to write a new post on here, not that I do it enough but because events have happened and there's some updating that needs to be done!

So, I went home to Bakersfield for Christmas this year and I had lots of fun! I'm a little sad that Keri and Merrill couldn't make it down due to horrible weather up where they live in Idaho...but I did get to see and hang out with them a few weekends ago so that was fun. Brian and I took a ton of photos from Christmas and the trip and I'll be posting some below for you all to view. I had a really great time visiting my family, as it had been a year since I'd seen them. And I hope it's not that long again before I see them. My nephews are getting bigger and older every time I see them. It's so crazy. The last time I actually lived at home, they were so little and I still see them as 2 little toddlers. It's hard to believe that they are growing up so much. After Christmas, we all drove up here to Ogden and the fam stayed with me for a few days. I was sad to see them leave a few mornings ago, but they wanted to leave early to allow the boys to have at least one more day for their winter break.

As for the new year, I have made some resolutions and I hope to stick to them and see them happen. A few of them involve me getting back into shape, getting back to school and figuring out what I want to major in, and maybe taking the journey to find my future companion. I've taken a break from it for long enough, so we'll see what happens. Who knows where I'll be next year at this time? Also, my good friend Beth was proposed to this afternoon by her boyfriend of 4 months, and they plan on getting married in March. I hope I can find my prince and get married in the temple one of these days.

Anyways here are a bunch of photos from the last few weeks...enjoy and I wish all of you a great New Year for 2009!!

Fabulous Christmas Party !!

2008-12-21T12:21:00.001-08:00

So, my roommate and I had a fabulous Christmas party this last Friday, and it was a blast. Here are just a few photos from it. Hope you enjoy!!

Me and Amy, my awesome roommate!!

Amy with our pretty pretty tree :)

Me and the beautiful tree

Jason, aka "Thug Masta", Jimmy and Rick

Amy, me and Jason making monkey faces

Me and Amy

Shawn and I doing my famous kissy face!

Trying to get a cute photo of Ky and Bridgette when Shawn jumped in, haha

Me and Jimmy with the kissy face

Me dancing

Nick, Me, Jason and Ky making kissy faces

The whole gang!

BRidGeTTe'S BdAy and Other EvEnTs!!!

2008-12-02T20:20:00.000-08:00

So, yesterday was my friend, Bridgette's Birthday. We threw a very small party and got her a cake. Here are a few pictures below. The second picture down is Bridgette wearing the necklace I got her for her birthday! And the last few pictures are from this last weekend...us at Kyleigh's house in her hot tub and then at the gateway, where we went shopping with all the black Friday sales and saw Twilight for the 2nd time! Enjoy the pictures!!! And I hope all of you are having a wonderful holiday season so far!!

ChUcK nOrRiS jOkEs

2008-11-29T13:26:00.000-08:00

So, I'm not sure how many of you have heard of Chuck Norris jokes. But I find some of them hilarious. So, I thought I'd share a few of them with you. But just to let you know, apparently he is invinceable and can do anything. And some of these jokes might not make sense, but they're not supposed to. I hope they make you laugh, as they do for me :) Enjoy!

"Rudolph has a red nose because he got lippy and Chuck Norris roundhouse kicked him across the face."

"If you have five dollars and Chuck Norris has five dollars, Chuck Norris has more money than you."

"Chuck Norris once broke the land speed record on a bicycle that was missing its chain and the back tire."

"Chuck Norris can touch MC Hammer."

"If paper beats rock, rock beats scissors, and scissors beats paper, what beats all 3 at the same time? Answer: Chuck Norris."

"When Chuck Norris was denied a Bacon McMuffin at McDonalds because it was 10:35, he roundhouse kicked the store so hard it became a KFC."

"Chuck Norris owns the greatest poker face of all-time. It helped him win the 1983 world series of poker despite him holding just a joker, a 2 of clubs, a 7 of spades, and a green number 4 from Uno and a monopoly ‘get out of jail free’ card."

"Chuck Norris doesn't read books. He stares them down until he gets the information he wants."

"Chuck Norris is the reason why Waldo is hiding."

"Chuck Norris can win a game of Connect Four in only three moves."

"Chuck Norris can build a snowman out of rain."

"Chuck Norris sleeps with a night light. Not because Chuck Norris is afraid of the dark, but the dark is afraid of Chuck Norris."

"Chuck can set ants on fire with a magnifying glass. At night."

Twilight & ThAnKsGiViNg!!!

2008-11-24T20:40:00.000-08:00

So, I just wanted to let you all know that I really really liked the new Twilight movie. It made my week! I mean it doesn't follow the amazing book by Stephenie Meyer, but it's still good. I also love the soundtrack, I think it has some great songs. So many people didn't like the movie, but I could honestly go see it over and over again...in fact I will most definitely buy it when it comes out on dvd. I went to the midnight showing when it came out last Thursday night/ Friday morning, and all 15 theaters at the Megaplex were packed full! There were sooo many people there, it was crazy. I guess just in the last 5 days the movie has made over $70.4 mil. I never thought I'd become one of those obsessive crazy Twilight fans, but unfortunately I have. I guess it could be because the actor who plays Edward Cullen is pretty darn hot and it's easy to relate with the main character, Bella Swan. If you haven't read the series, I suggest you do. They are a good read and real page turners, especially book 1, Twilight and book 4, Breaking Dawn! I am eventually going to start buying the books :) Here are a few pictures from the movie.

So, here's a list of everything I'm thankful for...considering Thanksgiving is this week!!
--My FaMiLy
--My FuN, bUt CrAzY fRiEnDs
--ChApStIcK
--MaNiCuReS
--WaTeR
--ThE cHuRcH
--MuSiC!
--ThE aBiLiTy To SiNg
--My LoNg HaIr
--AuDrEy HeBuRn MoViEs
--TwIlIgHt
--BeInG An AmErIcAn CiTiZeN
--My SaLaRy
--DaNcInG
--ClEaNiNg SuPpLiEs
--SuPeRmOdEl PeRfUmE bY vIcToRiA's SeCrEt
--ApPlE cInNaMoN cAnDlEs
--My LiFe, I lOvE iT...i CaN't CoMpLaIn!

In Other News---
I have a new roommate!! Her name is Amy Ligget, she's 26, and goes to WSU. She's awesome and fun, so I'm excited to get to know her and have her as a roommate!!
Also, I've decided that I am going to sell my two ipods, both nanos and 4GB's. I am going to buy the new 120GB ipod with my work Christmas bonus...I'm really excited too! I will be able to put ALL my cd's on it, along with my favorite music videos and tv shows from itunes :) I know it seems like I don't need that much space on an ipod, but it will hold EVERYTHING!
In other news, I've kinda figured out what's going on for Christmas...I guess my wonderful, fun and crazy family is coming up here again for Christmas and then Brian and I are driving home for New Year's! I haven't been home to Bakersfield for over a year, since Keri and Merrill got married! I think it's the longest I've ever been away from home :(
For Thanksgiving, I'll be going to my friend, Kyleigh's house. Her mother invited me, as well as Bridgette's family and Amy's mother, lol. I guess parents just like me or something, haha. I'm excited that I'll get an extra day off this week though!

Well, that's about it for now. I hope you all have the most wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

Music Video!!

2008-11-21T20:18:00.001-08:00

So, here is the Music video I was in. I'm not in it for very long, but see if you can find me :) This song is called This Bottle by Double Or Nothing. I know and work with both the singer, Nick, and the drummer, Derek. Also, the guy who put this whole video together is in my singles ward. Enjoy!!

Favorite Songs and Why!!

2008-11-13T00:17:00.001-08:00

So, I realized that I would like to show you all what my favorite songs are and why. I love love love music! Maybe a little too much sometimes...What I've done is make a playlist with all the songs I love, and above the playlist, I will be listing the song titles and a small explanation as to why I love these particular songs. So, enjoy!!

1. Won't Stop by OneRepublic--So, I saw OneRepublic this last weekend in a concert held for Weber State. They are an amazing 5-person band and I really like their whole cd. But this song stands out so much to me, because I really like it and the lead singer wrote this for his wife. I hope that someday, someone will feel this way about me :)

2. Sweetest Thing by U2--I really like this song, because it reminds me of a much simpler time, living at home in Jr. High and not having to worry about anything besides school and chores. Plus, I like the beat of this song.

3. Tied Together With A Smile by Taylor Swift--First of all, I am not a huge country fan, but I absolutely love any Taylor Swift songs. They have good messages and I like to sing along to them. I like this song, because sometimes I feel like I'm tied together with a smile but it's coming undone, liek I'm just going through the motions to make others happy...

4. Too Late by No Doubt--Sorry that this is the version of the song without words. Anyways, I like this song a lot because it too reminds me of being in high school and sharing a room with Keri :) The No Doubt cd was hers and I really liked listening to it. I really like this song, I listen to it on my ipod almost everyday.

5. The Angel And The One by Weezer--I love Weezer and all their songs! This song is really mellow and nice to listen to. I can understand what it's about as well, and it's a bit heartbreaking.

6. 3's And 7's by Queens of the Stone Age--I like the beat of this song and it's my most favorite song to play on guitar hero!

7. Kind And Generous by Natalie Merchant--If I remember correctly, this song came off off of Monica's favorite album titled, Ophelia. I love this song, because it's so smooth and relaxing, and also reminds me of Monica :)

8. Someone To Save You by OneRepublic--Yet another song by OneRepublic! I would've put their whole cd on here if I could have! I like the sound of this song and it's nice with the piano playing. I think it's my second favorite song of theirs. Their first being Tyrant, which I couldn't find online for this playlist :(

9. Tremble For My Beloved by Collective Soul--I really like the sounds in this song, how it slows down and then speeds up in some parts. It also is on the Twilight movie soundtrack! I can't wait to see the movie, as I love the books!

10. Supermassive Black Hole by Muse--I like how this song starts out, and the rhythms of the song :) It is on the Twilight moive soundtrack as well. (Fact: Muse is Stephanie Meyer's favorite band...for those of you who didn't know, she is the writer of the Twlight series!).

11. Beat Goes On by Madonna ft. Kanye West--I really like the beat and rhythm to this song, it's fun to sing and dance to. I like the part towards the end where Kanye West raps for a mintue too!

12. Situation by Yaz--This is my all-time favorite 80's song!! I always request this song to be played at the club where my friends and I go 80's dancing!! I love the sound of it!

13. Fix You by Coldplay--I've loved this song since I've first heard it. Don't we all need someone once in a while to "fix us"?

14. I Wonder by Chris Isaak--I really like this song and the melody of it. It is mellow and relaxing, and I also like Chris Isaak's voice. It's soothing in a way...

15. Far More by The Honorary Title--Anytime I feel down, I play this song. Don't ask me why, but it always help...I guess it's because I know there are other poeple that go through the same things I go through...

16. With love by Hilary Duff--I love getting ready to this song, it's so upbeat and fun to listen to!

17. I Shall Believe by Sheryl Crow--I really like this song and it gives me hope sometimes, it's soothing.

18. Just My Imagination by The Temptations--I like the rhythm of this song. I guess in a way it could be about me too...I sometimes like to daze off and be in my own little world. It's easy for me to block things out sometimes and imagine different things. It also reminds me a bit of my parents, seeing as everytime I can remember being in a car with them, they'd have oldies playing on the radio.

19. Love Will Keep Us Together by Captain and Tenille--I like this song, because there are a few parts of the song that are different and it also reminds me of one of my favorie tv shows, That 70's Show!

20. More Than This by Vanessa Carlton--I love this song, I love to listen to it AND sing along to it!

21. Breathe by Angels & Airwaves--This band is one of my favorites right now, and I really like this song. It's meaning and beat are kind of relaxing and I hope someone feels this way about me one day.

22. Tell Me A Lie by The Fratellis--I like how this song starts out, and then how it gets a bit more upbeat!

23. Say It Ain't So by Weezer--I don't even know where to begin! Everytime I hear this song, a number of memories comes flooding over me! Let's see...when I was younger, Monica and Shelby used to play this Weezer cd ALL the time...the summer I got Valley Fever, Keri loved to play any and all Weezer songs, and anytime we'd go somewhere it would play in the car...I also sang this for a Rock Band contest at a school activity/ dance, I got 2nd place!

24. More Time by Needtobreathe--I like this song. I think it explains itself.....

25. Sunday Morning by No Doubt--I really like this song. I'm sure there are Sundays where we've all felt like this and felt betrayed by someone we thought we could trust...

26. Lifeline by Angels & Airwaves--I like this song, very soothing...

27. You're Still The One by Shania Twain--I like this song very much. It reminds me of doing chores when I was younger and listening to her tape, and singing along to this. I probably annoyed Keri as well when I did that...

28. Dear Bobbie by Yellowcard--I absolutely love this song. It is such a sweet song and I love how they have an older man repeating memories to his love. I sometimes tear up when I listen to this song...

29. The Little Things by Colbie Caillat--This song is soo true when it comes to how most girls feel about boys they're dating. We get confused sometimes and don't know quite what to do.

30. Warwick Avenue by Duffy--I like the sound of her voice, it's so uncommon and rare. I like this song too, because most of us have been with someone when it just wasn't right and have been heart so bad by it that we thuoght we'd die. I actually have this music video on my ipod, and she cries through half of the song, while she's singing...I almost tear up when I hear it sometimes.

31. Lesson Learned by Alicia Keys ft. John Mayor--I like this song, because we all make mistakes and we always have that one family member or friend that likes to tell us that it was just another life lesson, to take what you can get from it and be wiser the next time...Plus, i like so many of Alicia's songs :)

32. Samson by Regina Spektor--I really like her voice and how all of her songs are random. She's very talented and this is just one song that proves it.

33. Don't Waste Your Time by Kelly Clarkson--If you listen to all the lyrics, then you'll know how I feel about my ex. I wish I just could've made things clear with this song and things may have been easier...Idk.

34. Now That We're Done by Metro Station--I like the sound of this song and it's really fun to sing and dance to! My friends like this band too and we listen to their cd in the car ALL the time :)

35. Just A Dream by Carrie Underwood--I really like Carrie Underwood...and although, this song is nice to sing to and one of my favorites by her, it's very sad. She loses the love of her life in the war after they get married and the story line is so strong and heartbreaking. I also have this music video and it's a sad sad story. Just listen to the lyrics...

Photos of Recent Events!!

2008-11-05T21:51:00.000-08:00

Here is a slide show of all the pictures I promised I'd post. They include a random, but fun girl's night with my friend, Colette...the New Mexico road trip to visit my friend Megan and her baby Alana...Random photos of my showing off my new hair color...and then a few photos from Halloween. Hope you enjoy them!!

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My Opinion...

2008-11-02T22:02:00.000-08:00

I have realized that I don't share my thoughts and opinions as often as I should on here. So, that is what I plan on doing. And all of the things I mention on here have been on my mind lately. I don't intend to offend anyone, I'm am simply going to state my opinion and what I think. Let's start with the first topic:

1. Hurried Marriages in the Church...
Alright, where should I start?? Well, I disagree with hurried marriages. To be more exact, I find it a little immature when a couple decides to get married after only dating a few months. It's ridiculous and only proves that they are so attracted to each other that they can't control themselves and find the only solution is to get married as quickly as they can. For example, recently there was a wedding between two kids I work with. The boy is my age and the girl is 19. In my opinion, far too young to get married. Anyways, they had started dating back in July, got engaged in September and married in October. I honestly think they were a little dumb for doing so, and getting married so fast. One reason I strongly feel this way, is because it is just not enough time to get to know someone. They could be putting on an act, lying, or who knows? Anyways, let's bring this to the next topic of discussion that I would like to talk about, and that is the divorce rate in our church, and especially in Utah. There is such a high divorce rate in our church and I think it is because the Prophet commands us to get married pretty much as fast as we can, or it seems so to me. Would you like to know how many divorced friends I have here in Utah?? I have about 10 friends who have been divorced and know of tons more. All of which are still very young and in their 20's. I have reason to believe this happens to so many young people, because they marry the first person who comes along. They don't wait and date lots of people to find the right one. One of my friends was talking to me on Saturday about how she was going to break up with her soon-to-be fiance. The reason she wants to break things of is because he brought up that he would like to "date other people". So, like most cases, she went to her Bishop. And guess what he told her? That she should still get married to him, because marriage is a Commandment and that a lot of young men go through this sort of thing before getting married. Well, guess what?? I've never heard of any young man that wanted to "date other people" before getting married. So, I stated my mind to Tiffany (She and I do have the same name), and I told her that if she didn't feel it was right, then she should break things off asap. I also told her that her bishop must not know what it's like in that kind of situation. Most guys that are about to get married or propose know for sure that they want to marry the girl they're with and will do anything to make it happen. Okay, I think I've said way too much on this subject, so onto the next one....

2. My Current Dating Life...
So, I'm sure most of you know that my last relationship didn't end well at all. I went through emotional hell (sorry for the language). It was hard to get out of bed every morning and I hated work, since my ex works there as well. I felt used, unwanted, stupid and plenty of other things. So, since then I've been on a kind of dating celibacy (if that's how you spell that). I have turned down a few guys who have asked me out, don't worry...I wasn't mean, I just told them I was either busy or not ready to date due to the emotional damage from my last relationship. Now, I have started dating again, but I honestly don't think I want a relationship anytime soon. I'm fine with being single, and I also want to accomplish some things before I take that next step in my life, which would be to get married. I know if I really wanted to, I could find some random guy and get married by like February, but I'm not like that, and I refuse to have a quick and fast wedding. I just don't want to go through what I did this last year and it's hard to trust guys now. I'm not sure whether to believe them or not. Now, don't get me wrong...my ex is a good person, but wasn't in a relationship. I just don't ever want to go through all I went through for a while. Just to let you in on what did happen, after the break up, he kept coming back for more and it was on again, off again ALL summer and I will never do that with anyone again. Of course, I do know that you take your chances in every relationship, but I'm just not ready for it yet.

3. Online Dating...
I don't agree with online dating at all. You never know who you could be chatting with and it is very idiotic to meet someone for the first time from online chatting or dating. Just don't do it!!!

4. Election 2008...
So, I didn't register to vote this election, because I am a California Citizen living in Utah. Don't get me wrong, I would totally vote if I were living in California, but I am not. I am also tired of hearing tv shows, celebrities or whoever else badmouth the candidates. It's ridiculous! I think you should just keep to your own party and vote for who you want to vote for, it's as simple as that! It may just be that I am a Conservative, but that's my opinion. I'm tired of it all. My friends will have arguments, and I'll just sit back and watch. I am not very competitive, if you know me well enough. And I hate competition. So, that's my opinion on the upcoming election. As long as we have people running our wonderful country who have a good head on their shoulders, are ethical, smart, and know how to lead our nation, then it should all be good. I believe peace is the key.

Alright, well that is all I have to say for now. Like I said earlier, I don't intend to offend or hurt anyone in anyway...these are just my thoughts and opinions. Everyone has their own say in topics, it's not called Freedom of Speech for nothing, right?? And if you read he whole thing, I applaud you, because it's a lot. Well, I am off to bed, so have a good week :)

Halloween, and Other Such Fun Things

2008-11-01T17:07:00.000-07:00

Here are just a few photos from the many events that have happened in the last month...there are lots more to come, I just need time to upload them! Enjoy!!

8 Things

2008-10-31T16:57:00.001-07:00

8 Things

8 Favorite TV Shows

The Office
That 70s Show
Bones
Gossip Girl ( I love the drama, haha.)
Heroes
Arrested Development
Gilmore Girls
Pushing Daisies

8 Favorite Restaurants

Subway
Olive Garden
Bajios
Texas Roadhouse
Panda Express
Wendy's
Chilis
Sonic

8 Things That Happened This Weekend

I got the internet installed in my apartment.
I paid some monthly bills.
I watched Heroes...I love that show!!
I worked.
I dressed up for Halloween.
Went to church.
Went grocery shopping.
Tried to resolve things with a friend.

8 Things to Look Forward To

OneRepublic concert at the Dee Events Center!
Growing my hair out longer.
Getting back to school.
Getting married in the temple, for some future date.
The activities I get to do tonight!
Going home for Christmas in 2 months!
Losing up to 20 lbs
Getting my next pay raise at work :)

8 Things I Love About Fall

The leaves changing color.
Getting to wear my nice coats and boots.
Halloween and Thanksgiving
No more hot weather.
It getting darker outside quicker...adding more time for sleep!
The smell of rain.
It is one of two of my favorite seasons, the other one being Spring :)
Pies!

8 Things On My Wishlist

A new computer
A car
A significant other
Enough money to pay for the rest of my schooling.
Even longer hair
To be a bit thinner than I am. (For some reason, I tend to think me not being so thin equals me not being married, like 90% of my friends.)
A college degree
A shopping spree for free!

8 People I am tagging...

Monica
Keri
Brian
Britney
Carla
Emilee
Whoever else would like to!

Good news for all !!

2008-10-09T21:09:00.001-07:00

Well, there's quite a lot to catch you all up on. Lately, there's been a lot of good in my life, and I'm pretty darn happy. Where to start?? I recently got "Lead of the Month" at work, I'm uptraining and learning more at work, and moving up in the company. I was in a music video last week for Double Or Nothing, it was their first music video too. My friend, Megan, whom I haven't seen in a long time is visiting her mother in New Mexico, and since it's much closer than Washington where she lives, a few of my friends and I are going to take a road trip to visit her! We are going next weekend, since it's Fall Break for WSU. For Halloween I'm going to dress up as one of the Spice Girls, Posh Spice. I already have an outfit picked out for it with boots and everything! My friends at work are dressing up as the other 4 Spice Girls and we're going to enter a contest at work, so hopefully we win! My friend, Beth, is getting her Endowments tomorrow in the Ogden Temple, and I'm very excited for her, although I don't get to go into the temple with her, like most of our friends, most of which are married. That's about all the good news I can think to report as of right now, but below is a montage of photos from recent events, including dressing up at Target, fun girl nights, the day of the making of the music video on campus at Weber State, dressing up at a huge Halloween store, and other fun events! Hope you enjoy, you may laugh at a few of them :)

Fall Events 2008

The Two Greatest Guys I Know!

2008-09-11T00:33:00.000-07:00

Well, my youngest and littlest nephew, Ezra, was baptized last weekend. I can't believe how big he is getting, along with Jacob, who is getting so tall and looking less like a child. It's amazing watching these two boys grow up. I wish I was around more, for I truly miss them. It's hard to believe that Ezra was born my freshman year of high school...I mean, look how old that makes me!

Ezra is just a handful, but so lovable and sweet. Even though he can be wild and crazy, he is lots of fun. When I called home this past Sunday, he answered the telephone and sounded soo happy. I asked how he was doing, and he told me that he had been baptized the previous day, he sounded so excited about it. And then we talked about guitar hero, since it's the greatest game of all time. I can remember babysitting he and Jacob while I was in high school and as soon as I'd put on a movie, he'd konk out on the floor, right in front of the television...it was hilarious to watch! He'd always be out cold, when a Keri or I would carry him to bed. I love how he says his R's with W's as well, namely how he says his name, "Ezwa". He is also soo much like his dad, Shelby, too! Looks like him and takes after him in soo many ways!

Jacob is soo sweet and caring. He has always been the more mellow boy. I can remember long nights of staying up with him, while Monica and Shelby were either on a date or doing work in L.A. at the Temple, and having to comfort and hold him because he wanted his mom. He would literally stay up until after midnight, and he would look so incredibly tired and worn out, but he'd fight it out until Monica walked through the front door. He has always been a momma's boy. Boy, I can remember the day he started walking and how it startled me. I can also remember that when he was about 1 or 2, he'd make this scrunched up face so everyone would laugh. Those were the days. I wish I could go back and hold on to the memories even longer, but time moves forward as well as people. He is so much like his mom, Monica, in so many ways. Whenever I get the chance to visit home, he always sits right next to me or hugs me. He is the most caring boy I know, and I love him to death! I can also remember making "homework" or reading to him. There was one stage he went through though, where everytime I'd walk into the room, he'd scream and want me to leave. Oh, how I do not miss those days! But I can laugh about it now, even though I didn't then.

To Jakey and Ezra! You two are soo great, and I love you both so much!

How I Feel Lately

2008-08-24T13:57:00.001-07:00

I thought I'd leave another post, due to the fact that I felt the need to. Well, where to start? Lately I've been feeling like there's something missing in my life, like a gap or something that needs to be there in order for me to continue forward with every one of my goals. I'm not quite sure what it is, but the feeling is there and it's been hard for me to make it through everyday, not knowing anything. It's been hard for me to motivate myself lately as well.
My roomate moved out a few days ago and I have to find a new roomie, not just because I need the moolah, but because I don't want to live alone. That is one of my greatest fears--to truly be alone, with no one. If it weren't for my family and friends, I don't know where I'd be today.
Sure, I've been through a lot--things that I shouldn't have ever had to deal with or be put through, but I have and I always learn from those experiences and try to find a positive outlook. Just for the record, those of you who don't know too much about my past, I've lost both of my parents. I lost them when I was younger, at the ages of 9 and 10, my father to a car accident, and my mother to breast cancer. And let me tell you, it was hard getting through those first few years after I'd lost them, But I had my family, and we had Heavenly Father and His love for us. We had faith that we'd get through it all, and we did. I hope it's a long, very long time before I have to attend another family member's funeral. I've been to too many, considering the fact that I can't even count on both my hands.
Recently, I've been trying to find myself--or rather, find out who I am and what is best for me. I've been taking personality tests and talking to people, and for some odd reason, I'm still not satisfied. Like I said earlier, there is something missing for me, and I'm trying to search for it. I've been trying new things and looking at people and situations differently--trying to see the good, rather than the bad. I'm not sure how I feel about it all just yet, but it has been helping me. It's hard for me to even get up every morning and go to work.
Work is another story. A few weeks ago, I applied for a QA postion. I even went to the interview and turned in my resume. Although I felt like I was on the verge of something better, I hoped that I wouldn't get the job. I felt that I needed to stay where I am at my job, even though it's been a struggle and I'm honestly tired of doing the things I have to do. I'm exhausted from having to listen to truckers and customers complain and blame me for their actions. I'm sad that I have to babysit reps, because they don't follow policies and respect their leaders. I'm tired of having to put on an act for the people I work with and be someone who I want to be, but don't have the energy for anymore. I know that it seems wrong, but I'd rather be at another job, where I'm new and can start out fresh. I would get another job in a heart beat, but this job pays me so well and gives whatever schedule I want. So, I will be there until I'm done with school or transfer to another place. Also, one of my best friends, Bridgette, just quit. yesterday was her last day, and she was one of the people that helped me get through the day while at work. I will miss working with her, but grateful that I did meet her and become good friends with her.
Lately, I've found a liking to watching very dramatic television shows, because I like to compare my life to others and I feel that my life is better that the fictional characters on these shows I like to watch. It's not like it's all I do, but it makes me feel better and it's sort of relaxing. Last night I went to a concert to see a friend's boyfriend's band play, and that was fun. I'm thankful for all my friends who like to include me in their activites :)
Sorry that I've just been rambling on and now that I overlook this post, it looks more like a journal entry, haha. I just felt the need to leave something on here. Hopefully, I can look back and be in a better place than I am right now :) I will find a solution and fill that missing gap in my life.

Here are a few good quotes I really like---

"A strong positive mental attitude will create more miracles than any wonder drug."
-Patricia Neal

"Never take the advice of someone who has not had your kind of trouble."-Sidney J. Harris

"It does not matter how slowly you go, as long as you don't stop." -Confucuis

"My heart, which is so full to overflowing, has often been solaced and reached by music when sick and weary." -Martin Luther King Jr.

"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes aheadwith the grace of woman, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every goodbye, you learn..." -1971 Veronica A. Shoffstall

"People grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously. This is how character is built." -Eleanor Roosevelt

"Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you." -Audrey Hepburn

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe less so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”-Marilyn Monroe

“I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person.” –Audrey Hepburn

Brian

2008-08-21T16:53:00.000-07:00

So, Brian turned 20 a few days ago. He came up here to Ogden and I threw him a barbeque and baked him a cake, since he hadn't had anything else planned for him. I hope he had fun. I'm grateful for Brian, he is the closest family member to me. He is always there when I need someone to talk to. I mean, when we were younger, we did not get along at ALL! Just ask Keri, she got the blunt end of it all the time, haha. But since the earlier days, Brian and I have grown up and now get along and have a better relationship than we used to, and for that, I am thankful he's my brother. Brian, I hope you have a great 20th year and anytime you need someone to talk to, know that I am here as a sister and as a friend! I love you and I hope you had a great Birthday!!

Summer is almost over

2008-08-15T11:59:00.000-07:00

I can't believe summer is almost over! It was such a fun summer though. Below is a montage of photos and events that happened this summer, have fun watching it!!

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Gratitude Journal

2008-07-27T00:52:00.001-07:00

I just thought I'd let you all know that I've started a Gratitude Journal. I hope to be more optimistic and see only the good in others. My goal is to write at least 5 things or people I'm grateful for every day. I got the idea from a friend, so we'll see how this turns out and if it can change me at all. I hope you are all having an exciting summer as well!!!

2008-07-07T23:47:00.001-07:00

Here's a list of all my favorite songs right now:

Lost-Michael Buble
You're A God-Vertical Horizon
Let Me Go-3 Doors Down
Picture To Burn-Taylor Swift
Thought I Knew-Weezer
All Around the World-Daft Punk
Far More-Honorary Title
All The Young Dudes-Mott The Hoople
Feel This-Bethany Joy Galeotti ft. Enation
Breathe-Angels & Airwaves
Lifeline-Angels & Airwaves
All Of This-Blink 182
Always On My Mind-Michael Buble
The Way I Am-Ingrid Michaelson
The More Boys I Meet-Carrie Underwood
Don't Waste Your Time-Kelly Clarkson
Realize-Colbie Caillat
Fix You-Coldplay
The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most-Dashboard Confessional
Landslide-Dixie Chicks
Hair-The Early November
Weapon of Choice-Fatboy Slim
Look After You-The Fray
Here (In Your Arms)-Hellogoodbye
Standing Still-Jewel
It's Only Life-Kate Voegele
Gone-Kelly Clarkson
Irvine-Kelly Clarkson
Lesson Learned-Alicia Keys
Naive-The Kooks
Give It 2 Me-Madonna
Try A Little Tenderness-Michael Buble
Light Years Away-MoZella

These are songs that I really like right now for one reason or another. I think you'd all like them too! I hope you are all having a fabulous week!

Birthday photos!!

2008-06-23T19:25:00.000-07:00

Here are a few fun photos from my birthday weekend. Feel free to laugh at most of them because I know you'll want to, haha.

Kyleigh, me and Bridgette!

Bridgette and I

Blowing out the candles...

My birthday cake!!!

Things I Love

2008-06-22T17:37:00.001-07:00

Here is a list of the things I Love:

I love my family.
I love the Gospel.
I love my Heavenly Father.
I love singing.
I love music.
I love being organized.
I love the Temple.
I love being tan.
I love dancing.
I love shoes.
I love manicures.
I love helping others.
I love reading.
I love chocolate milk.
I love raspberries.
I love Disneyland.
I love the mall.
I love being a girly girl.
I love Michael Buble.
I love taking photos and being in them.
I love Christmas.
I love the color pink.
I love the sound of rain.
I love the smell of a clean house.
I love 'The Office'.
I love Angels and Airwaves.
I love 'A Walk to Remember'.
I love fashion.
I love watermelon.
I love earrings.
I love soccer.
I love the smell of a camp fire.
I love Target.
I love 'Enchanted'.
I love going to movie theaters.
I love dressing up.
I love having my hair played with.
I love facebook.
I love talking with my friends about things that matter.
I love watching the sun set.
I love walks.
I love playful puppies.
I love holding a newborn baby.
I love baking.
I love being creative.
I love a good, meaningful quote.
I love black olives.
I love chocolate.
I love folding laundry.
I love blogging.
I love guitar hero.
I love karaoke.
I love writing.
I love hearing 'Thank you'.
I love deviled eggs.
I love chocolate covered strawberries.
I love when I know someone cares about me.
I love my close friends.
I love playing solitare on my ipod.
I love Twilight.
I love being in charge.
I love scrapbooking.
I love scary movies.
I love Alicia Keys.
I love 'The Little Mermaid'.
I love baking cookies.
I love my country.
I love flowers.
I love 'Lost'.
I love Jimmy Eat World.
I love Kelly Clarkson.
I love keeping letters and reading them over and over again.
I love being loved.

My Birthday

2008-06-22T17:05:00.000-07:00

Well, my 22nd birthday was three days ago. I had to work, but it was alright. I got to go dancing and my friend, Bridgette, made me a cake! And today is Keri's birthday...she's a great sister who has always been there for me and I really do appreciate everything she does for me. She is soo patient, loving, smart, and caring. I'm glad to call her my sister :)
Monica posted a blog about me and my birthday and I'm grateful for her as well. It was really very thoughtful of her :) You can read it if you want!
So, Brian came up last weekend and we went to Lagoon and had lots of fun. Here are a few randon photos of us goofing off with his camera:

8 Things

2008-06-17T17:53:00.000-07:00

Figure 8

8 Things I am passionate about:

-My family
-Music
-Church
-Shoes
-The Office
-Photos
-Friends
-Raspberries

8 past books I've read:

-Harry Potter (All 7)
-Twilight
-Pride and Prejudice
-Cat's Eye
-The Book of Mormon
-All Around the Town
-The Secret
-He's Just Not That Into You

8 things I often say:

-Sweet
-Awesome
-Cool cool
-Now I understand...
-Oh, really?
-Hmm, I don't know
-I agree
-I disagree...

8 things I look for in a friend:

-Sense of humor
-Doesn't judge on character
-Respectful
-Honest
-Integrity
-Optimistic
-Can make me a better person
-Fun and random

8 things I want to do before I die:

-Learn to snowboard
-Have children
-Get married in the temple
-Buy a car
-Leave the country
-Find my true love
-Become healthier
-Graduate college

8 things I have learned this past year:

-If you always try, you'll never succeed. You need to do.
-Always be there for your family and friends, and you'll receive blessings in return.
-Never settle for less, the sky's the limit!
-True friends are those who understand you and will always be there with a shoulder to cry on.
-Always be the best you can be. It builds character and creates self-happiness.
-There is ALWAYS someone who cares tremendously for you, even if you don't know it.
-Optimism overrides pessimism.
-Love hurts, but it's worth it all in the end.

8 people to do the 8 things:
Okay, I changed my mind.
-Monica
-Keri
-Emilee
-Carla
-Brian
-(Whoever else wants to!)

2008-06-07T17:56:00.000-07:00

Here are just a few photos from the last week. I went to Lagoon and dancing with my roomate and other friends! here are the photos:

Simple summer

2008-06-01T16:15:00.000-07:00

Wow, I can't believe it's been this long since I've lived here in Utah. It doesn't feel like four years since graduating from Foothill High school. Time really does fly as the years go by. My birthday is coming up this month and I'm excited for it, except for the fact that here in Utah, being 22 or older seems to be frowned down upon if you're not married. But I'm in no rush to get married. I am enjoying life and living in every moment that I can. I am going to Lagoon, the only theme park in Utah, on Wednesday for a ward activity, so I'm excited about that. Other than that, it's just going to be a simple summer with fun activities and more growing up and getting to know myself. I'm also single again, but I'm okay with that. I know my prince in shining armor is out there for me somewhere and I can't wait until the day I meet him or even realize who he is.
I've been pondering on my future lately, and it scares me for the simple reason that I don't know where I'll be or who I'll be in 5 or even 10 years. So, I'm going to list some goals I've made and where I see myself in 10 years. I see myself as very happy with my life, having been married in the temple to a wonderful Priesthood holder, whom I love and he loves me, I see maybe a child or two and myself as a stay at home mother. I will have already graduated college and I want to feel successful in what I do. I will have a husband who is respectful, caring, sweet, fun, tells or shows me almost everyday he loves me, and children who are adorable, cute and fun. This is where I see myself in 10 years and hopefully I will look back on my dreams a goals and realize that I'm truly happy with my life and my family.
I think that life is hard, but it is worth it and there are many bumps on the way but it's those bumps and trials that make us stronger and make us unique as individuals. Although I'm having a bit of a hard time right now, I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for me and what my future holds. I know that I can say a prayer and He will help me through all of my trials.
In my next blog, I will list all of the things that make me who I am. I wish all of you a fun and sunny summer!

Fun times!

2008-01-12T00:41:00.000-08:00

Here is a video of all that has been happening in the last month...hope you enjoy it! It includes Christmas, New Year's and a friend's wedding reception along with a fun video!! I hope you are all having a greay new year so far!!

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2008-01-08T19:52:00.000-08:00

Sorry, it's been an month since I've last written a blog on here. My family came up here to spend Christmas with me and that was very exciting and fun! I'm glad they cam up here too, it made my week :) So, lately I've been having a bit of a hard time with deciding exactly what I want to do with my life. And today I found out that my roomate wants to move out and get her own place this summer, so I have that on my plate as well for I will have tofind another roomate to live with me. But I have a few girls in mind, so I'll see who can live with me, and if I can't find anyone, then I guess I'll be searching for a place as well. I actually wouldn't mind living alone, but it's the means of transportation and the cost of living that I would worry about. Well, I'm hoping I can get through these next few months and make it out alive...but I hope all of you are doing well and are having a great week! I will post a new video or something from Christmas the next time I put a blog on here. So, until then I wish all you a wonderful winter season ;)

Fall Events

2007-12-09T00:05:00.000-08:00

My life has been crazy for the last few weeks. Keri got married 3 weeks ago, Brian came up here and had Thanksgiving with me, I have gotten to catch up with old fun friends, I helped throw a bridal shower for my great friend, Cassie, who gets married in 3 weeks, and lots of other events. Here is yet another slide show of most of these events! Hope you enjoy :)

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Alana...

2007-12-08T23:56:00.000-08:00

So, here are a few new pictures of Alana. Megan says she's getting bigger eacn and everyday. She's so adorable :)

2007-11-28T16:00:00.000-08:00

Sorry, it's been a while since I've posted anything on here. I've been kinda busy. Keri and Merrill's wedding was nice and I enjoyed it. It was a little stressful, but what wedding isn't?? Well, here is a link to something truly funny involving elfs and my friends and I, haha. I hope you enjoy it!

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9629369290

Life lately

2007-11-12T22:56:00.000-08:00

Well, it seems that life has been very busy lately, but also fun and full of knowledgeable things. I cannot believe Keri is getting married in 5 days! It's too crazy to even think about. I haven't yet met Merrill, but I'm sure he's a great guy or Keri would not have chosen him to be her future companion. I'm very excited to be in her wedding this next weekend and it will be fun. I'm also very happy that I get to see my family. I got to spend a day with Brian this last weekend and we had some fun. Here are a few pitures I took:

Halloween slideshow :)

2007-11-01T00:04:00.001-07:00

So, Halloween was a blast this year and I had lots of fun! I was Audrey Hepburn! Here's a slideshow of some pictures I took!

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Halloween

2007-10-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

I apologize for not posting anything last week. I've been kinda busy, more than usual. Here's whats been happening: This last Friday after I worked, I went to a corn maze with my ward and then we went to see Quiet Drive at school and three was a dance afterwards and then we went 80's dancing, so that was a busy night, and I met some new people and hung out with them this last weekend :) Saturday night we had a Halloween party and dressed up and watched The Fog, with Tom Welling who also stars in Smallville and I think he's one of the best looking actors. Sunday we had a game night after Fireside and Fireside was about the power of prayer, it was a good talk. I have more things planned for the next few weeks, a few of which include going to the institute Halloween dance, going to a Halloween Night at school and some other things. I thought I'd just update my life in here real quick before I leave for work. I also wish I could've gone home to CA to go to Keri's bridal shower, I feel bad I missed it :( She and Merrill stopped by to say hi to me on Sunday too but I was in church :( So, I guess I won't get to meet Merrill until the night before their wedding. Well, have a good week and I will post some recent Halloween pictures next time. By the way, I am going to be Audrey Hepburn for Halloween, so I'll definitely be posting new pictures!

Life

2007-10-10T22:28:00.000-07:00

Well, I thought I would try to get at least one post on here a week, so that's what I'm going to strive to do. This past weekend while watching General Conference, I realized how grateful I am to have the Gospel in my life and to have my wonderful, loving, caring family always there and my great friends who help me and understand me. Life has been pretty hard and trivial, but I am getting through it, even with all the stress. But I guess that experiences like these make you humble for who is in your life and how good you have things. I was recently talking with one of my best friends and also my roomate, Beth. We were discussing what we wanted in our futures and it really made me think and ponder on what I really do want. I want to always have the Gospel in my life, a good education, and love from my family and also friends. With taking this semester off of school, I have had time to myself and time to ponder on life and it's meaning. There is a purpose for everything and for every one of Christ's children. He loves us and cares for us and I truly believe that He loves me and does everything for me to end up to what is best for me in life with my situations.
This weekend Beth and I went to her grandmother's house in Salt Lake City for Sunday evening dinner and it really made me think about how important family is. I just want to say that I am sooo grateful and thankful for my family and everything they do. Whether it be just letting me vent to them about a few of my problems and stress or calling me and telling me they are thinking of me and praying for me. I look up to Monica and Shelby for how well they raised Keri, Brian and I under the circumstances and just seeing how they could do that really is a strength for me. They are wonderful parents and examples to me and to others and are doing a really good job raising Jacob and Ezra. I really look forward to every Sunday night when my family calls me and asks me how I'm doing. I'm always doing well, even though I'm ALWAYS stressed out. But it's a good thing that I'm more optimistic than pessimistic, cause that's what really gets me through everyday.
I just thought I'd write down some thoughts and express my appreciation for my loved ones. I don't know where I'd truly be without them. Thank you ;)
Here are a few pictures from this last weekened. The first two were taken in SLC and the bottom two were taken Sunday night when all my friends make homeade cookies and played games.

Alana Photos

2007-09-26T13:18:00.001-07:00

Here a few recently updated photos of my best friend's baby, Alana. She is doing very well and is now almost 4 months old. She weighs about 8lbs now and looks just like her dad!

ABC's

2007-09-19T13:21:00.000-07:00

Easy as 1-2-3
A- age: 21
B- bed size: queen
C- Chore you hate: doing the dishes and taking out the trash
D- Dessert you love: ice cream
E- Essential start of your day: taking a shower
F- Favorite musical artist: I like quite a few, so I'll list some-Vanessa Carlton, Cake, No Doubt, and All American Rejects
G- Gold or Silver: Silver
H- Have to Have: my cell phone, chap stick, and ipod
I- Instruments you play: I can play a few songs on the piano, but that's all
J- Job title: Let's see...Supervisor to the call center for TCH and TAB
K- Kids: Someday
L- Living arrangements: I live in a big apartment with my friend, Beth. I have my own bathroom and bedroom too, it's nice!
M- Most favorite month: December, I like the snow, the Christmas spirit and getting to see family
N- Nickname: Tiff
O- Ordered last on the internet: I think I bought a song like 2 weeks ago from itunes, it was an 80's song called Situation by Yaz...
P- Phobia: I hate feet
Q- Quote: "Life is like the mail, sometimes you just don't get it."
R- Right or Left handed: Right
S- Siblings: Shelby, Monica, Keri, and Brian
T- Traffic tickets you've received: none
U- Unique Talent: well, I get along with all types of different people and I like to be creative and organize
V- Veggie you hate: Brussel Sprouts
W- Worst habit: I can complain or talk a little too much sometimes, haha
X- What body part would you Xerox?: my hand...
Y- Yummy food you make: spaghetti!
Z- Zodiac sign: I think mine is Gemini

Work

2007-09-19T13:18:00.000-07:00

So, I am becoming a supervisor where I work. I will get to take calls from other reps in the call center and make sure everything is well and whatnot, I will get a raise too! So, it'll be fun but also interesting, as I have to train and take more tests for it. Well, I hope everyone is having a good week so far!!!

Busy weekend, but lots of fun!

2007-09-17T01:35:00.000-07:00

Well, this weekend was pretty busy but fun. Friday night I hung out with my friends and took some fun pictures while Holly trimmed Kyleigh's hair for her friend's wedding this next week. Saturday Beth and I went to my friend Fatai's, it was Tongan and new, but really fun and I'm soo happy for her! Then I worked until 10pm that night and came home and played a new version of LIFE, where it's electronic and you have a credit card that keeps your score, so you don't have fake money lying around, that was fun and then Beth, Kyleigh, and I watched The DaVinci Code, that was a pretty good movie! Then on Sunday I went to church, came home took a nap and then went to my friend, Jason's family's house and they made us dinner, it was very nice and yummy! Then we went to one of his Stake's firesides and I saw a few people whom I work with, that was fun! And I came home and played apples to apples with my friends too!! It was friend fun-filled weekend for that matter! There are a few pictures of from this weekend in the slideshow at the bottom, so enjoy!!

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Slideshow of memories from not too long ago

2007-09-09T21:14:00.001-07:00

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Fall 2007

2007-09-09T19:56:00.001-07:00

Well, it's been a while since I've done a blog for this, haha. I've been busy with working full time and I'm gone a lot, hanging out with friends or at a friend's house. What can I say...? I guess I have a life, haha. Here are a few new and recent pictures from when I was home about 3 weeks ago...Enjoy!!!

Jacob, me and Keri making funny faces!

The 3 girls...Me, Monica, and Keri

Shelby, Ezra, and Monica at Morrow Bay!

Aww...Shelby and Monica

Brian and Monica in San Luis Obisbo

Brian's birthday, and Jacob, Keri, and Georgina hanging out in the living room

Ezra and Tiffany!!

Megan and Joe's Wedding, Updated Alana Pics and New haircut

2007-08-08T10:19:00.000-07:00